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Chun.YuI felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Friday, June 30, 2006
Ah! I don't want to go Malaysia! I don't want! I want stay at home so that I can go out with YOU on Sunday. *sobs* So sad... By the way, I tag at your blog! Must go and see ok? ^^ *haix* Never mind~ We can go out again next time. =) Today I'm also very happy! I dun bear to eat away the chocolates..=X And one thing! I love that pen VERY much. Remember to help me thanks your sister. It's been almost two weeks since we stead. And I'm very happy ever since THAT day! I'm happy to have YOU. I never regret it. By the way, I will go and write the letter later...^^ MUACKX! Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Know what? Today I saw a lot of "kawai" shuai ge! And one thing, they are all from Japan! Ok, I shall start from the beginning. Ms Sim asked us (CO) to perform for some Japanese visitors and they are from a junior high school in Japan. ^^ The moment we saw them, it's "Oh my god!" Guys are handsome while girls are pretty! But they all have one common thing and that is, they are all very KAWAI! From 8.30 till 12.30, we spent our time interacting with them. Though we might had some diffculty in communicating, all of us still enjoyed it very much. The Japanese girl I was with most of the time is so KAWAI! I got some presents from them. I didn't know there was a gift exchange or should I say all of the CO members didn't know so, we did not prepare anything for them. >.< But the teachers prepare our CCKSS file to give it to them which is like so..erm herm. =X But the Japanese students don't seem to mind it. I also took some pictures with them, using their camera. Well, I forgot to use my handphone to take which I did regret abit but never mind! Maybe we might be able to see each other again if we are able to go and visit their school. Ok, the guys might be handsome but.. I'm not interested in them! It's because, I only got YOU in my heart. =) And, those guys are not interested in me either. *wahahaha* Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Second day as school and as usual, I had been sleeping in class. =.= WOW! Eeling, Xinjie and me had new names! Eeling aka Eevy, Xinjie aka Anvy, me aka Levon. LOls.. Nice and unique name right? ^^ All thanks to Xinjie and Eevy. Oh, should be Eevy and Anvy. Well, luckily the CO rehearsal is only until around 4.30 which after that the four of us went to plaza. I spent around $5.70 to treat the three of them to sweet talks. *wahx*but never mind, it's ok! =) *haix* I'm so sad! I miss YOU so much... Even during class I'm also missing YOU. I just can't seem to be able to concentrate in class. I just wish that I really don't have to go Malaysia this weekend so that I be able to go out with YOU. =X Monday, June 26, 2006
Hmm..I just realise that I can't message. =.= I'm so damn fed up... I can't message YOU!! I can't miss call YOU!! Hope my dad pay the bill soon..=X I'm going to miss you ALOT... Anyway, today is the first day of school. As usual, I'm slacking as always... And, oh my god! Our Amath teacher has been changed from Mrs Phillip to Mrs Tan.. I was like, so disappointed! I was thinking," Oh no...My Amath is going to be a gone case." I'm not saying Mrs Tan is not a good teacher but... I'm already used to Mrs Phillip's way of teaching and she was also the one who inspired me to love Amath!! *haix* I just hope my Amath grade would not drop. I really used alot of my effort before i finally managed to pass it with a B grade! =.= And..tomorrow I have to stay in school to rehearse for the performance on this Wednesday. I just learned about this today. I think is performed for the Japanese visitor who visit our school. So tiring! I wonder until what time I'm going to stay in school tomorrow... >.< Sunday, June 25, 2006
So sad... Tomorrow is the first day of school. And.. I have to wait until Thursday before I can see you again. >.< I hate to go back school! Days pass by so soon..*haix* I want holidays to come again! Anyway, I finally manage to finish my most of my homework. Though, I still left SS project, HMT and Emath!! Ok.. I'm not going to think about it any more. I'm going to think of you.=X Laogong! I'm very touched by what you said...I also will not leave you. MUACKX!! ^^ Saturday, June 24, 2006
Today was consider the last day for the YFC. It's because... School is starting soon!! *haix* I swear to myself to finish my math homework by TODAY. By hook or by crook. If not, I never be able to finish my homework!! Even if I have to spend the whole night doing it... Went over to YOUR house to watch scary movie 4. That was quite a "interesting" movie. =X ------------ When I saw that message, I wonder. Did you thought the other way? FOREVER. This is a word that has too much responsibilty. Maybe we might not really last forever but I just want you to know that I treasure you. I hope nothing would happen to make either one of us to leave each other. But... If you think the other way, it's ok too. I really don't mind. I won't force you to stay by my side forever. ^^ When it's time to let you leave, I will. Though I feel sad.Anyway, I won't think so much now. =) Friday, June 23, 2006
Soon, going to school is going to be the thing I always do during WEEKDAYS. This tell all of you that our fun time is officially over in about 2 more days time. I repeat, over!! I just hate school! How I wish it's holidays everyday! This way, I will NOT have to do my homework, will not have to take any tests and most importantly, I will get to see you EVERYDAY. =X Today I see YOU again!! But I feel so heartbroken for your money. Being used up just because of me. =X Hope they all won't asked YOU treat them again. And, I promise, I will don my homework today!! Really... But, just don't know when. =X Maybe, I will see YOU tomorrow too! I hope. And one more thing, I'm feeling fine now. Don't worry. ^^ P.S I'm now feeling very happy.AND bliss. =) Thank to YOU. *muackx* Thursday, June 22, 2006
Ok, I just change my blog skin. I know I said I hate GREEN but... =X Anyway, now I finally have the chance to update. ^^ Just finish helping YOU change your blogskin! Don't know if you will see what I had write in there a not. LOls.. Had an enjoyable day today! Will always remember it... Wednesday, June 21, 2006
-continue- Now I'm at home and I finally get to use my computer. Yesterday can't use because I went out with YOU. ^^ So, I didnt get to update my blog. Xh finally get back from Malaysia last Saturday! And I told her about what had happened during the time she's not in Singapore. Well, she's quite sad today. I don't know how to help her but... I already told her that it was not her fault that things turned out this way. Nobody expected it. She shouldn't blame herself. *Haix* Just hope that she will be fine. Anyway, today went school to help with the YFC thing. Went to computor lab and use computer which is why there is the previous post. =X Just can't stand HER. She act innocent!! She scold my dear dear qiu qiu. EVEN MRS PHILLIP!! >.< Don't know why... From the moment I wake up till just now that I hang up the phone after talking to you, I keep thinking about yesterday. =) Hope we can see each other tomorrow. ^^ Ouch~~ I now in school using computor and I just now bang my head onto things. OUCH! Anyway, didn't blog for 2 days and YOU keep ask me to go update. =.=ll Later than update again. That teacher keep looking at me. >.< Sunday, June 18, 2006
Yesterday was the BEST day of my life. From now on, my life is going to be totally different, in a good way. ^^ Anyway, today was a boring day at home. Slacking, miss call you, watch tv was all that I had done. =X But I shall do it at night. =) Friday, June 16, 2006
I overslept today again. =.= And I was late for NYAA and if not for eeling's call, I think I will still be sleeping comfortably at home. =X Anyway, today Co was damn fun! Our combine practice for "long teng hu yue" was so fast! But we all enjoy it. It had been such a long time that we are able to play like this. After our senior step down, Co was like so damn boring and problematic. But now, it's better. =) -EDITED- I HATE GREEN. Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Stupid connection. I had to wait until now before I am able to use my computor. *argh* Every hour,minutes and second just pass by slowly. But what can I do? =.= Feed the mosquito in my school today AGAIN. Now I look like an idiot who keep scratching my legs. I just cannot stand it! My blood is NOT at all. Can anyone stop them from drinking my blood? Going at this rate, I will soon be dying from losing of blood. Maybe a more possible outcome, dying from scratching my legs! Anyway, I will have to be a "teacher" tomrrow. Ok, a more suitable word, student leader. =) This is for the NYAA award. ^^ Teaching people how to play zhong ruan is going to be hard! Not because it's diffcult to learn but because eeling not going tomorrow! I wonder how am I going to cope with all of them which is like around 5 or 6 people. =.= Don't know why teacher make this internal exchange becuase I don't want~~ I want to learn other new things!! Monday, June 12, 2006
Ok..I really cannot stand not writing in my blog. *bleahx* I surrender!! It had just became a habit of writing in my blog..^^ Today was still the same.I had to go back to school to help my friends with YFC. I'm damn FED up with explaining to people about what is YFC... =.= Quite irritating with people buzzing around asking you what is this about and you had to repeat yourself for umpteen times..So, people!! Stop asking me what is this about. It's a project for the secondary schools. =X The mountain of homeworks on my study table is such an eyesore. Wish I can just throw it away or rather, BURN it. *bleahz* Time DO fly pass us. School is reopening in two weeks time!! Can I just make time stop?? Or can I just don't do my homework? ^^ Either way, it's going to be a good thing for me.Though, that would never happen. Wednesday, June 07, 2006
I didn't know how did I manage to go home with my painful leg. I didn't realise that my leg had a big cut even when I bath. It was only until just now that my mum told me about it. *haix* I also don't care about that small thing, compared to the big big problem that I am having now. It was on my mind from yesterday until today. Yup, I agree that I am a failure. A total failure. A person who is only capable of irritating other people. So, I'm sorry if you are one of the person who I irritated. I'm tired of explaining to you. SORRY!! DUI BU QI!! I also don't want things to turn out this way. I really appreciate what you had done. I really did not meant it that way. I .... *haix* I don't know how to tell you how I feel and what I am thinking. I don't how to express it in words. What should I do?? Tuesday, June 06, 2006
I had become a naggy granny. Just because of you. See, I'm so good. But, I think I should not do all those actions of concern for you. Like what you had told me yesterday. And also because of the most important point, I'm just a nobody, at least for now. I just hope you will take good care of yourselve. I didn't know until today that one sentence that you said could make me feel so despressed. I don't know what make you feel this way. I thought I told you the reason why I needed time yesterday? I had been hurt before and had hurt others before. I don't want to hurt anyone, anymore. That's one of the reason. There's still other reason why I needed time to think over it. I swear to myself not to cry over any relationship anymore. I have to tell myself to have confidence, to overcome these barrier. Therefore, I need time. I hope you would understand. Sorry. Each one of us would do things that we would regret including me and you. But I know deep in my heart that I won't and never will. I hope you really meant what you say, that you would not regret it. Somehow, I had started to hate the word, "regret". >.< So, I'm sorry that I didn't reply your message. I don't how to spend my two weeks without you. -.- But I promise you that I will think over it for these period of times when you are not around. Monday, June 05, 2006
From now on, i shall write somthing that is useful to read. Something that is not CRAP. That is a suggestion from SOMEONE whose English is also very bad. But there's one fact for all of you to know and that is, my English is way better than that SOMEONE. You don't believe? We shall wait and see..^^ So many people went oversea this holiday and i was the unlucky girl who did not have the fortune to go oversea.*sobx* But it's ok! There's too much homework for me to do though i have not really started on it. Can't really blame me because i did not have the heart and mood to do it this few days. I was busy helping qiu qiu with the YFC project. All this walking and talking this few day make my legs ache and throat dry. =.= Oh yeah! I think by writing this way, my english sure improve. Like what Miss Lau said, we must practice English everyday. She also mention correcting friend's mistake when speaking in English. But, I think that be diffcult because we seldom talk in English. Even when we are having English lesson. =X I know if Miss Lau read about this, she be so sad. But, no choice. That is the FACT!! ^^ Now, i just want to say that I am a person who don't dare to say out whatever is on my mind. I don't like to trouble people with all my problems too. Keeping every thing to myself is something that i always do and something which I cannot change. And, girls tend to keep every thing to ourselve. Isn't this good? I thought guys do not like girls to bug them with all those small problems. By the way, a fact for you to know. Girls are still girls afterall. There's something which is just not right for us to say it out. Time is what I need now. I hope, things would just turn out fine in the end. =) Maybe this two weeks would be a good time for us to figure it all out what we really want. And by the time we finally meet, it will be a whole new starting line for us. Regardless it's good or BAD, we still have to move on! ^^ Saturday, June 03, 2006
wahx!! todae tired agaiin..leg achiin siia..aiyoyo..cos todae went tuhh do the YFC thingy lohx..walkiin ard bugis..askinn ppl donate money..wahahahax..xD..quite fun lahx..at least most orfh the ppl donate the money..thou we did encounter sum WHO jus refuse tuhh even donate a single cent..but nbm..its their own choice..we cant force open their wallets and tk out all the red and blue notes andd put iit inside our can...im nortt tt BAD! ^^ wake up at 7 and went out orfh the hse at 8.10..took 960 tuhh bugis and miit mei qiu they all at the bugis mrt station..we had tuhh walk tuhh the booth at NLB which ii didnt even noe it existed..oh well..miie..liing..xJ..chong ying papa..weihsin mama..iish in a grp.we took the goods and cans and off we went tuhh "ask" money frm the ppl..we split iinto two groups whiich of cos..miie.ling and xJ stay tgt..damn hungry at ard 11 so went tuhh eat KFC..=X after tt, we continue a little mre b4 goiin back tuhh the booth.. ii stay there tuhh help dem wiif those kiids who wanna mk kites..cos nortt enuff ppl..LOlx..so xJ andd liing went off agaiin..those kiids so cute worx!! lolx..the thing they draw oso..^^ went hme at ard 5 plus..cos damn tired andd there was nth else left tuhh do.. oh yarx!! dunno i gortt tt job anot but..tt auntiie say will giif miie a call iif nortt i call her..oh well,hope i gortt it..found iit wen we askiin ppl donate money..gotta noe tt auntie thru tt lohx..LOlx..she help us donate andd we tok and tok wiif her..tts how..aniiwae.ii niid money!!!! Friday, June 02, 2006
*yawnz* todae was a tiring day ferr miie..wake up at 7.30..tuhh rush finish muii emath work b4 goiin tuhh the emath supp..luckily did sme orfh the qn..iif nortt hafta stay back till quite late..mrs tan say hafta add extra lesson..ii was lyk OMG~~ tok didnt hafta go sch ferr supp anii mre..BUT..cos she habent finish coordinate geometery...=.= after emath..went tuhh canteen wiif qiiu qiiu..banana...andd yuan qiiu..i watch dem as they eat..cos i hafta waiit ferr ling mahx..so cant eat first..FINALLY liing came lohx..dan we went tuhh her klass tuhh deco.but the klass rm door was locked so liing hafta go find tt uncle..ii was there..waiitin ferr her tuhh find the uncle..the whole floor onii gorrt miie..quite relaxin lahx..nortt scary at all..LOlx..ii there tiink lotsa things lohx.. afiqah suddenly cum up..scared miie siia..LOlx..she was cryiin..wahx..ii dunno wartt tuhh do so can onii peii her lohx..hmm..dan finally liing found tt uncle..spend sum time there...watchiin her deco iit..hahax..untiil 1.30 lohx..waiited ferr sum ap ppl tuhh assemble..so iiritatiin siia..>.< at 2.30 went tuhh collect the satay wiif liing andd the 3 bois frm erhu..cant stand dem..LOlx.so chatty siia...waited ferr tt satay ferr bout 45 mins..=.= sian lohx..finally..those old folks came...quite enjoyable to chat wiif dem..lolx..they berii friiendly lohx..we took sum piics wiif them cos mrs ngoh say de..finally the BBQ end..quite a success lahx..expect ferr sum ppl who OBVIOSLY onii went there tuhh eat..nortt tuhh help..cannot depend on dem!! tml gortt tt YFC thingy lohx..so hafta wake up early agaiin..go sell QIU QIU products!! lolx..kk..so hafta rest early todae!! ^^ Thursday, June 01, 2006
wow! long long time no post le..jus update muii skiin..hahax..i lurve iit berii muchiie..simple and niice..LOlx..of cos lahx! iish ii choose de mahx..^^ aniiwae.. ytd was sure a TIRING day...cos orfh tt BBQ tml lohx.. ytd had biio supp..and amath retest..tt amath retest was okiiex..and ii was lucky tt ii did the whole exam paper last last niite cos iif nortt..i wouldnt noe hw tuhh do tt paper ytd..hahax..after biio supp, me..ser wee..chong yiing..and xh went tuhh lot1 ntuc tuhh shop ferr the things we niid ferr tml BBQ..along wif 9 sec ones oso..linng didnt go cos she gortt tuition.. duriin co, we almost gortt blasted buii jiiang..she was lyk there..kiip naggin bout the attendtence list...askiin why gt ppl pon..why gt ppl late..MY GOD!! is tiish muii prob? i oso cant guan dem mahx..ii onii in charge orfh takiin the attendence..dan we all was lyk there..yayaya..all the way..aiyo..dan horx..me n ser wee berii keliian..kip hafta run here n there..first was tuhh go fiind the erhu lohx..dan after tt tk the thing we bought tuhh mdm lim..dan after linng supp we went tuhh find her againn..=.= after co..we went tuhh find tt satay man..we went tuhh 3 shop b4 we finally settle the "satay" probs..wahx!! walk until leg berii paiin..LOlx. todae horx..oversplt!!my god!! i saw the time i was lyk..SHOCK..hahax..so i miss muii emath remedial...luckily nortt biio..hahax..after biio went tuhh fiind mrs tan lohx..heng she nortt angry! =X dan waited ferr xh they all tuhh finish tokiin wiif mrs tan..which after tt..went mac tuhh eat lohx.ii was damn hungry..cos ii rushed tuhh biio class without eatiin breakfast..=.= had a tok wif ms lau..she quite niice siia..lolx..wanted tuhh giif us eng tuition..but she say mayb niix tiime mus pay fees le..LOlx..funni..aniiwae..tts the todae ferr miie..>.< |
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