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Chun.YuI felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Exits
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Wednesday, January 30, 2008
I tried all my ways to make you happy. Yet you still chose her. I've learnt something. And it's always better to be loved, than to love someone. (: Do treasure those who love you. 紧管我细心灌溉你说不爱就不爱 YES! I'm going to live my days happily from now on.:D And weird, I feel like studying. HAHA. I'm going to work hard to go UNIVERSITY!!! Another off day. Slacking at home~ I haven't got my pay!! And the worst thing is that I've not bought my CNY clothes too. Hahas. Ok, I plan to buy dress~ But I think I look shorter wearing dress. -.- Thursday would be my last day doing full timer. I'll have to wait till next Monday to resume working, as a part timer. March would be even better cos' I don't have to work at all. Lols. Well, I'm going to appeal till I get into SP if I'm really so "lucky" to get into my first choice. Asked XH to help me ask if it's going to be difficult for me to appeal into it and that person said that should be can... Does that means I stand a chance? LOLS. And I've asked some of the people studying in SP and my kor, they said should be ok. I hope so. -.- It's damn troublesome. None of this would have happen if I've not go and change my application form at the last minute. I should have state my stand clearer to my parents!!!! I don't want to have any more regrets. It's a BAD feeling and I hate it. YEAH! I've finally found the song that I've been wanting to find. It's the song playing on my blog and I really love the melody of it. I even find that the lyrics is damn meangingful.(: And I've changed something on my blog. If not for some un-creative people who actually used what I've written on my blog, I also won't bother to write something new. Oh well, I guess that person is just so plain lazy. The worst thing is that, that person denies it. HAHA. Pathetic lahs~ Parents never bother to find out what their child really want. They will just impose their thinking on to them. They will always say, "This is all for your own good" and expect us to thank them for it. Please lahs, don't act as if you know everything. Times are different now. This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending. No hope, no love, no glory, no happy ending. Monday, January 28, 2008
Damn it. I hate my parents. They basically FORCE me to amend my application form. I don't want to go JJC. I DON'T WANT. I HATE THEM!! If I ended up in any of the stupid courses just because I wasted my 1st choice on JJC instead of the business course, I'm gonna blame them for it. I'm gonna do many stupid things that they will never think of. Stupid, what the heck of what letting me choose what I like. GO TO HELL. I've never had any regrets. Till today. -.- I should also blame myself for being so itchy hand. I hope I can get into Business Adminstration. AH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ CAN CAN CAN?? I want to go to SP. PLEEAAAASSSEEE~~ A bulletin board in my friendster which I came across. Every girl dreams that one day she WILL find a guy that does these things for her. Even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someone's life. • leave her cute text notes. • kiss her in front of your friends. • tell her she looks beautiful • look into her eyes when you talk to her. • let her mess with your hair. • touch her hair. • just walk around with her. • FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES. • look at her like she's the only girl you see. • tickle her even when she says stop. • hold her hand when you're aroundyour friends. • when she starts swearing at you,tell her you love her. • let her fall asleep in your arms. • get her mad, then kiss her. • tease her and let her tease you back. • stay up all night with her when she's sick. • watch her favorite movie with her. • kiss her forehead. • let her wear your clothes. • when she's sad, hang out with her. • let her know she's important. • let her take all the photos she wants of you. • kiss her in the pouring rain. • when you fall in love with her, tell her. • and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before. That's what I want. :D I guess this is something which many people would say, but never really able to do it. A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now, he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go..... 人生最傷心的事, 是你和他/ 她愛情長跑了多年,最後的結局卻不如所望。 如果他 /她現在讓你覺得不值得付出, 那麼一年,甚至十年後,都不會值得付出的。 讓他/她走吧... I've finally decided(: After days of pondering & sleepless nights, I've submitted my application form. Wahahahahas. Yeah, I've made up my mind to choose poly instead of JC. Cos' to me & maybe to my friends too, I'm really not suitable for JC. So well, this is how I choose. 1 - S71 BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION (SINGAPORE Four years of secondary school life is finally over. =X Though I used to complain that I hate my school, I will still remininsced the past that I had in the school in future. Hahas. Cos' this is the place where I got to know all my bestie. =] Of course, I will hold all the precious memories that I had with my friends dearly. Now that all of us had to part ways to continue with the journey of our life, I wish all of my friends all the best. :D Wee, I'm going to rebond my hair. I guess? LOL. I hope you will still confide in me like how you do so in the past. Will you? Friday, January 25, 2008
I still remember the atmosphere in the hall yesterday before taking our results. I still remember I almost cried when I saw my results. I still remember how happy I was when I saw that I pass both of my math. I still remember I almost couldn't take my results cos' I've not paid my school fees. HAHA. And, I still do not know if I should go Jurong JC or take the business adminstration course in SP. -.- My parents keep psycho me go JC. My friends think that I'm not suitable for JC. I'M GONNA HACK THE PERSON WHO THOUGHT OF THIS STUPID THING. WHY MUST WE CHOOSE WHETHER TO GO POLY OR JC. -.- But I still remember that all I could think of yesterday was him. I don't know why... It's like duh, my mind keeps wonder offffff~ HAIX. I guess, he's still on my mind & heart. Thursday, January 24, 2008
WAHAHAHAHAHAs. I guess my result isn't really what I've expected. =] As in, I didn't realise I could get below 15 for my L1R4. I think I should be satisfied with my results. Right? Hmm, it's like really lucky that I didn't fail my A.math and E.math!! Not forgetting chemistry. I even got an A for A.math. Phew, I didn't let my teacher down!! Hahas. And the weird thing is that I actually score better for my A.math than E.math. How cool is that. -.- But that's within my expectation cos' I just felt that E.math is harder than A.math. Whee, I'm a weird person. :D So, overall: English : B3 Combined humanities : B3 Math : B3 A.math : A2 Chemistry : C6 Biology : C6 Higher Chinese : A2 L1R4 : 12 L1R5 : 18 P.S This is before deduction of CCA point and Higher Chinese. So any suggestions? Poly or JC? This is making me go MAD. AH! Just a few hours left before the release of O's level result. =(( I'm feeling damn nervous about it. I kept thinking that I wouldn't really do that well~ Luckily Jeremy showed me a video which helps to ease my anxiety a bit. They are so charming~ How I wished that a guy would also sing it for me. Hahas. Of course, provided that his singing is not those kind that will break the glasses. =] Video is at the bottom. Do take a look. I'm sure you will be charmed by them too, if you are a girl. ^^ And by the way, they are Korean singers, a band called Paran. They are singing the song 月亮代表我的心. :D And well, I've converted to doing part time next month. Which means, I'm going to earn lesser money, though I will have plenty of time to slack around. -.- SOBS. Tuesday, January 22, 2008
I think I sprained my feet. =(( Exactly 1 more month to my BIRTHDAY! =] 把手放了 我也许会比较快乐 我也许会换个情人 我也许不会再撑 真的够了 能不能让雨别再下了 能不能让心别再疼了 能不能不要开灯 我们的爱跟着 你写的剧本 出现了越来越多的角色 我是你什么人 如果不是情人 是不是不要 再浪费我的人生 你比我更清楚 你对我多好 多温柔多认真 不构成爱我的资格 除非你只看着我 想着我只有我 爱本来就该独一无二 为你伤心多一点少一点 流下的眼泪都一样不值得 世界上那么多人 只有我一个人 能拯救自己的快乐 不要再为你哭了 Monday, January 21, 2008
I'm exhuasted(: Had a really fun day with XJ. Wahahahas. Did alot of stupid things and yeah, we even found a new place for shopping. ^^V Oh well, bought a new belt and a bra strap. HAHAs. I guess I've to really go on diet now cos' I actually spent almost all of my money. Woo~ Great huh... My happy day had to be ruin by a stupid auntie at the Sweetalk stall at BPP. She was the one who heard wrongly but she acted as if I was the one who's in the wrong. WTH. What kind of service lohs... I'm going to boycott that SHOP!!! Oh well, O's level result will be out on Thursday. OMG. I wonder how well or bad I'm going to score for it. I'm damn NERVOUS! =X I really had a super bad feeling about it. Argh, I always felt giddy after I kinda squat down for a while recently. Guess I need more blood. Especially since my best friend is here now. Anyone want to donate blood to me? Lols. Make a new friend recently and he seem to be quite nice & handsome too. LOLS. & yeah, they seem to be back together. Oh well, wish them happily ever after.(: I guess that girl should have learn how to treasure him after this incident. It doesn't matter who you are with. As long as you are happy, I'll be too. I just need care & concern. A guy who pampers me like a child. & only me. (: Once, he said that I treated him the best. But look what happen in the end? Nothing is definite. =] Thursday, January 17, 2008
Memories at ... Westmall.Causeway Point.Causeway Library.Jurong Library.Plaza Singapura.Wistma.Marina Square.Esplande.Vivo City.Bukit Panjang Plaza.Suntec.IMM.Chinatown.Toa Payoh.Clark Quay.Queensway.Far East Plaza.Raffles City 187 188 176 75 171 700 960 52 190 961 Why could I remember so clearly? I've got no idea. Hahas. Goodbye (: OUCH. My tummy hurts. Tummy had been really weird recently. Perhaps cos' I've been skipping meals? Wahahahahas. Bad tummy. I've got no money to feed my tummy. Cos' I'm broke~ =(( Wee, another off day. :D Had supper with XJ after work yesterday. I'm like hell damn full. -.- Lols. Talked about the 4 of us, about our past relationship, about our past school life, about practically everything. :D It will be even more fun if the other 2 of them are there as well. Hahas. Well, planning to slack at home today. That's the advantage of not having a boyfriend. Able to just stay at home and rest. =] Unlike in the past when I have to travel down there and wait for him to end his work. LOL. I'm not complaining cos' this is the way if you have a boy/girlfriend. Oh no, perhaps going over to XH's house later. Da bian, I'm just not sure. Hahas. By the way, I'm broke. Who wanna give me money!! (: Relationship has to be two way in order for it to work. It isn't enough to just have one person doing all the things to keep the relationship going. It's really tiring. Especially when you've tried to do some special things to make that person feel happy and yet, that person showed no sign of appreciation. Sometimes, I really wonder what would be now if we've never been together before. Lols. Wow, life is really full of surprises. You always end up with people whom you least expected. (: Monday, January 14, 2008
Bad luck has been following me these few days. Firstly, I broke my finger nail. A few days later, I broke my toe nail. What BAD luck. =.= Well, work has been fine for the past one month. =] Just celebrated my supervisor birthday yesterday. Hahas. It was damn hilarious to see his astonished look on his face when we bring out a birthday cake out of nowhere. Heh, my birthday is coming too. I wonder if they will do this too. =X Well, life has not been really awesome for me recently. Still, life has to go on as normal. I don't feel sad. Instead, I felt a sense of relief. Finally, I can stop worrying about those things. :D I'm sure we will be great friends more than ever. It is sure better for us to remain as friends. I will just take it that I've just woken up from a beautiful dream of mine. Wednesday, January 09, 2008
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND! He's cool. He's nice. He's good. He's everything. =] & I'm tired. *Yawns. Meeting for XJ for breakfast tomorrow morning. So well, I should better sleep soon! I hope you like the perfume I gave you. :D Monday, January 07, 2008
Time seems to pass by soooo slowly~ It's 1 hour and 45 minutes left before meeting XJ. And and and, I've still have to go back school to collect my edusave. -.- Troublesome. But NBM. For the sake of MONEY. ^^V I love my supervisor!! Why? Cos' he let me off on the 14th and 22nd of February. Wee~ That means I can at least spend it with my boy even if he have to work on those days. I'm looking forward.:D YEAPS! It's my off day again. Hahas. =] This job has a lot of benefits hors! Well, I finally have a chance to go shopping~ I'm so so so so so damn excited. Cos' it's been a long time since I've last went shopping. Of course, I'm going to shop for things to buy for my boy. :D *sweethearts So yups, going shopping later with XJ and ling. Perhaps, going to find my boy after his work too. (: Friday, January 04, 2008
Didn't get to go out with my boy today. Cos' he's SICK. AH~ What a good timing lahs. -.- So I stayed at XH house till 8pm with MX cos' I was watching Channel 8, 7pm show. Woo, been soooo long since I've last seen TV programmes. Lols. Well well well, I am only able to go shopping on Monday. Firstly, the cheque will only be bank in after 2pm on Monday. Secondly, I've to work for the next 2 days before it's my off day again. But wait, I've to find someone to accompany me to shop!! Cos' I think my boy have to work on Monday. >.< YES! Don't ever be cheated by the yam basket which cost $13 selling at Block 163 kopitiam. It's totally not worth it. Went there to eat yesterday with my boy. Lols. Yawns. I'm tired. & I miss him~ Though I've just met him yesterday. HAHA. I want watch movie~ TAKE CARE LAHS! If not I box you. |
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