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Chun.YuI felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Monday, April 30, 2007
-girl:i love you -Boy:yeah i know everyone does! -Girl:really? -Boy:yeah... everyone of my friends that are girls tell me that everyday -Girl:oh... but am i only your friend? -Boy:no... youre my girlfriend... why? -Girl:so when i say i love you i really do mean it -Boy:yeah i know you do mean it...its just that you dont need to tell me that you love me anymore cuz i know you love me since the day we been together and i love you more each and everyday. -Girl:...... -Boy:so wanna go somewhere tonight for our 7th anni? -Girl:yeah... where? -Boy:i dont know... maybe movie then dinner? -Girl:ok -Boy:ill pick you up after i get off and get ready ok? -Girl:ok. what time do you get off? -Boy:in 2 hours and then i gotta go home and yeah,get ready which takes about 15-20 mintues... -Girl:aye... i thought you didnt have work today... -Boy:one of my co-workers called in sick -Girl:oh okay! so i'll see you around 7:30 then? -Boy:yeah! and babe? -Girl:yeah? -Boy:i love you -Girl:i love you too! -Boy:ok my manager is likelooking at me so yeah.... i gotta go. -Girl:ok bye-Boy:bye **************************** 2 hours later... the guy drives to his girlfriend's house and walks up to the door and rings bell -Girl:hey! (gives a kiss to her boyfriend) -Boy:wassup... you ready? -Girl:um... wait... let me get my bag and we can go ok? -Boy:ok they both watched a movie and ate dinner.... once they were done eating they head back to the car but beforeshe got into the car... -Boy:wait! can i blind fold you? -Girl:why??! -Boy:its a suprise -Girl:what kind of suprise? -Boy:a big one -Girl:okay but only if you promise me thatyou will hold my hand while we're driving. -Boy:i promise. -Girl:ok blind fold me... so they drove off...........and then they stoped. -Boy:ok we're here! -Girl:where? -Boy:wait let me walk you to the place! -Girl:what place? -Boy:somewhere? (and gives a kiss to her on the lips) the boy walks her to the place -Boy:ok.... let me take the blind fold off -Girl:where are we?he takes it off her and she opens her eyes and sees the view of the city andat that same spot... thats where he first asked her to be his Girlfriend.... -Girl:omg.... (tears come down) -Boy:why are you crying? -Girl:this is where you first asked me out... -Boy:what are you doing the rest of your life?(he asked on his knees and after he says that...behind him... in the air it says "will you marry me?"in fireworks) -Girl:(tears come down faster) -Boy:i wasnt at work when you called me...i was planning this whole thing! -Girl:get up! -Boy:yeah? -Girl:(kisses him) -Boy:is that a yes or a no? -Girl:yes! TOUCHING STORY~ =X Yeaps. Today was the HMT exam. At first, I thought nothing of it. I still have this plan to quickly finish my paper so that I can go off to my lala~ land. But it turn out that that's not the case. Hahas. I really used 2 hour fully. That paper was so damn difficult. For example, paper 1. The second question for the ying yong wen was like huh? I think all of us had the same feeling and reaction when we saw the question. Hahas. Damn profound man... I'm sure none of us did that question. Let me go on to paper 2. I think I've never written so much in my life except for the paper 2 that I had just taken today. I almost break my hand from writting so much. Luckily I managed to finish in time. Lols. But when I finished the whole exam, both my hand were already filled with liquid and pen ink. =X Lols. Don't really have much faith in that stupid paper. Wonder what Mdm Jiang was thinking of when she set that paper... =.= Well, it's ok!! I'm going to work hard for my Emath. I can't afford to fail again!!! =X At least get a B. Yups. I don't expect me to get an A. Of course, it will be nice if I can. LOLS. I've already planned my study plan for tomorrow. ^^V P.S Everyone, jiayou!! =] Sunday, April 29, 2007
I damn freaking hate my mother. I damn freaking detest my brother. I damn freaking annoyed by both of them. She's so damn freaking biased!!!!!!!! Argh. There's so much grievance that I wanted to tell someone. And how I wish ZHU is by my side... I want to lean on his shoulder and cried and pour out all my unhappiness to him. There's really not such thing as being fair in this world. People will always be biased towards one side. Yet, I'm sad to say that there's nobody who's biased towards me. I'm like alone in this big big world? O.o Apart from those close friends that I had, I realised there's no other people who's there for me whenever I have problems. Seem like my relationship with other people isn't that good. I know this few days I've been feeling so negative. I think I'm like xj, going through an emotional breakdown. Hahas. I don't know. Sometimes, I really wished I can just cried all day long without having to worry about anything with ZHU accompanying me. It's really nice to have a person to be by your side, console you and lent you his whenever you are facing any problems. @#$%%@#(@)#_%*#(@!@*@#* I want to scream out loud!!!! I'm stress with facing all the problems. Yet, I think there's nobody who's there to help me. Nobody cares. Friday, April 27, 2007
Finally, I realised that I'm such a irritating parasite. YUPS. That's the word, parasite. ( Definition: The parasite derives nutrition from it's host and usually, causing harm to its host. ) Yeah... That's me. I'm the one who's been causing all the unhappiness to people around me. Maybe all of you ought to get a pesticide to get rid of me. HAHA. It really doesn't matter to me if I'm happy or NOT. Nobody cares anyway... So why should I? Right? Some of you just used me as a toy to vent all your anger on me. Yet, I kept mute. But, can you just spare a thought for me? I am still a human. And even if I'm an animal I still have my feelings. It's really being unhumane of you to torture me. Perhaps, I don't have the right to say all this because some of you might not even care about it. =/ Nobody understand me. BETTER!! I feel better after "saying" out everything. PLEASE, I'm not complaining or pushing any blame or saying anyone in particular. I just want to vent it out. If I keep everything inside my heart, I'm sure I will die of suffocation. =] Well, today pass by very quickly. Hahas. I've to bring back all my books home to prepare for next week Mother Tongue Mid-year exam. And that's like, a whole big stack! By the time I reach home, my hand and shoulder are already aching. I even sprain my ankle. How pathetic is that? Imagine me carrying my bag, holding a box filled with books and my hair flying all over. =X AH~! Guess what? I really hate my EL teacher. She's such a useless teacher. I don't think I've learnt anything ever since she took over Miss Filzah. NOTHING. =X Maybe it's her teaching method that doesn't suit me. Or I'm just being biased. But one reason or another, I just don't like to attend her lessons. Pardon me if any one of YOU happen to like her, which I think it's highly impossible. Lols. Monday is our Mother Tongue exam. I don't give a damn to it. Lols. What I'm more worry about is my Emath exam on Wednesday. =/ Wonder if I will do well in it... In any case, ZHU!! Jiayou too. Bleah. Still sleeping now. O.o LAZY! Lols. =p Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Hectic day for me... =.= I'm damn beat. The stupid Chemistry test that I had just now was damn difficult. With all the blanks and "tikam" answer that I had filled in, it seem difficult for me to pass it. Hahas. Tears was almost coming out of my eyes when I was there trying to recall all of the things that had been taught on the topic of electrolysis, ionic and covalent bond... =X There was a time when I took a break and look around, I can see people writing on their test paper vigorously with all the solutions coming out from their brain. I panic. I wonder if it's because of my last minute work that had cause me to lose all the marks that I was supposed to get. Haix. Really kinda depressing when I realised that I couldn't really solve almost all of the questions that had came out. Is it because of my stupidness or laziness? =/I used up all of my brain juice trying to recall all the things that I had study. SHIT!!! I don't want to fail... Sobs. I think I should change topic. If not, I'm going to have a sleepless night thinking about this stupid exam. =X Let's talk about something cheerful!! I just asked my dad about my plan for June. And that is to go to East Coast to catch the sunrise with XH, XJ and ZHU. Lols. He agree to let me go!!! I'm damn delighted. Hahas. Guess all the negative thoughts in my mind just went away after knowing that my dad agree to let me go. xD Next week is Emath and HMT exam. I'm going to jiayou and pull up my socks!! That's only for Emath. As for HMT, I think I will just let nature take it's course. Lols. I don't really give a damn to it. Anyway I also got my 'O' level result for normal chinese. So... HECK CARE!! =X Someone please push me to work hard!! I can't afford to slack anymore. Especially after the result I got for my Emath transformation test. =.= Shall not talk about it further. JIAYOU!!!!!!!!! Monday, April 23, 2007
i love you , boy (X exactly the way you're; your smile , your everything . thats when i love you ,i love you anyway. love me ; like the way i do. i swear i wont go , but would you come back ? love me like you used to i yearn for your return. love should be so beautiful. how i wished ; i was bliss with ur love Here I am, sitting down in fornt of the computer, chatting on msn and updating my blog when there's hell load of things for me to do. Like for example, the common test for Chemistry is tomorrow!! =X 12 topics to study and I haven't even started. =.= LMAO It's kinda unbelieveable that I don't have any supplementary today. LOLs. That's like so rare? Yeah... Maybe other people in the other schools doesn't have the same thinking that I have. Yet I truly believe that people who are studying in my school are knocking their head vigorously now when they saw this. Hahas. =X I do treasure this rare opportunity. That's why I'm here using the computer. I'll be starting my revision too. I think. =/ Mrs Tan wasn't here so there's not much homework for us to do. Great isn't it? Plenty of time left for me to study my Chemistry. =P ATTENTION!! P.S My name is chunyu. Not the same meaning like the spring rain.. =.= Sunday, April 22, 2007
Loving yoo. At the same time, I'm missing yoo. Yet, I hate yoo too. How how how? What should I do? There's alot of things that were left unsaid. Why why why? For the fact that I'm scared that yoo will leave me again. Will yoo eva give me the miracle that I had been hoping for? However for now, it's really best to just stay as friends. At least I can see the smile that is on your face. =] One day, the space that I used to have in your heart might be occupied by another girl. But there's will always be a place for you in my heart. No matter what. Wahs!! Sobs. Days just pass by so quickly. My stressful days are going to start again tomorrow. =X SAD-ED. Managed to finish my Amath Trigonometry worksheet. Just that alone had spent me half a day to complete it. There's still the HMT exam paper. AH!! Can I don't do it? Guess I'm starting to have problems coping with my homework. That's kinda bad news. =/ But I must still hang on and have the "NO-DIE" spirit!! =] Common test for Chemistry is on Tuesday. Two more days and I have not started my revision. SHIT. I want to buck up!! But my mind just seem to wonder off whenever I started studying. Maybe this is my excuse.. >.< Went over to find ZHU yesterday. I'm always getting bully by him!! No fair.. SOBS. But I finally get him to agree to accompany me to go to East Coast during the June holidays to watch sunrise. Wahahahahas. Who ask him to bully me. Retribution. =P It's been fun and easy whenever I'm talking to him or going out with him. Still the same old feelings. =)) Friday, April 20, 2007
Finally, it's the end of the week! It's cetainly had been a hectic week for me. Having to rush so many homework. =X Yet amazingly, I did it. Lols. I completed all my homework that had to be done for this week. BLEAHS!! The bad news is that there are still homework to be done over the weekend mainly; E.math, A.math and Geography. Well, I've gotta buck up!! O' level near and I shouldn't waste my time here complaining about my work. =X Hahas. Today is also the last day of CCA. Secondary Four and Five CO members had officially step down today. Frankly speaking, we didn't had much to do today. We don't have to go for combined practice and don't even have to coach our Secondary One juniors cos' teacher was here today to teach them. So I was slacking outside the Dance Room with xh, weiyang and a couple of the NPCC Cardets. Wahs! That Daniel really love bullying people. Didn't even left a single chocolate behind for me to eat. And keep suaning us short. >.< unearthed some shocking news today about Daniel and ...... =X Won't talk more about that in case of getting a beating from that person. =P There's some celebrations for our step down today. This is also in conjunction of the retirement of Mdm Lin, maintaining our silver for SYF this year and also, thanking all the CO members, teachers and instructors!! =)) Therefore, we bought 2 cakes. One for Mdm Lin and one for Secondary four and Five students. Hees. Nice man~~ The cake is chocolate!! ^^V Here's some pictures of the cake...  Mdm Lin's cake...  Our Chocolate cake!! This is before...  This is how the cake look like after eating!! Disgusting? Lols. We girls did that to prevent the guys from having another serving of the cake. Lols. =X Anyway, I had an enjoyable day. Didn't really expect that my juniors would cried. >.< They are just so adorable! I want to tahnk them for the present that they had give me. I love it alot!! Bleahs. I'm so touched!!! =) Message to juniors: Remember to jiayou for next SYF!! Get a gold and make us proud! =)) It's really nice and fun to have all of you as our juniors. Really very guai and cute!! Seniors would always support you. Even if we are not there to support you physically, we will be with all of you mentally. ^^ Take care!! Don't worry!! We will still come back and see all of you de... So don't be sad! It's not as if we are not coming back. We are!! =X Seniors will definitely jiayou for our studies de! Stay happy always!! =D I was looking at the letters Zhu wrote to me last time. From the day we met to our fourth month. That's all he wrote. If I didn't remember wrongly, he still own me one letter. Well, I think it doesn't matter any more bahs.. I really miss the time when we are still together. =X It's really been happy being with him. But it's all in the past. All I want is just for him to be happy now. And I will be happy too. Hope so. =X Yups. Let's just stay this way for now. =D Wednesday, April 18, 2007
我的最爱- 张韶涵 像一场梦却醒不过 来另一个我在看着我 她问我值不值得为你付出 所有只要一想起你的温柔 就会让我看不清楚 你想做的你没有 谁强迫我坚强我却都忍的住 清醒的孤独你永远是我的最爱 不管爱你有多难我的心只想属于你 无法预知的未来 你试着抱起我却看见远方寂寞 爱将会克服一切 在我心中我不会停止爱着你 握着你温热的手 就算偶尔透露你的不安和放纵 我总是相信你 另一个你在看着我 他问我愿不愿意给你更多自由 只要一想起你的忧愁 我想做的我梦里的孤独 你永远是我的最爱 Well, I'm feeling better. =) Mentally. Not physically. Lols. It's because I'm having a sore throat, muscle ache and a bit of fever!! SADDED. No mood to do homework. =X I'm just feeling so erm.. ill? Hahas. Anyway, our class is planning a BBQ during the June holidays. I have told xuehua about the plan I made!! Lols. We can go and watch the sunset before the day of the BBQ. Great isn't it? BLEAH. I think it's going to be fun!! Just hope that nothing goes wrong and I can go for the BBQ. =)) Days just pass by so fast!! There's so many homework to do and I'm just so scared that I'm not able to catch up. >.< Oh ya! I just went to get my O level certificate for my Mother Tongue. It's kinda weird to have only a subject imprinted on the certificate. Hahas. One important thing that I must say! I've finally step down from the CCA!! Wonder if I should be happy? Or sad? Now that I've more time to study, I'm going to work extra hard!! I can't waste this precious time. =X Jiayou everyone!! Jiayou for our O' level. And of course, ZHU!! Must jiayou too. =D Tuesday, April 17, 2007
I think, I have put down everything. For now. That's the reason why I have the courage to write in my blog again. I haven't been able to update my blog because, all my memories with you are here. Written in this blog.. I really miss you alot. I really wish to say the three words to you again. And also, to hear it from you again. I've been acting to be happy ever since your departure. I'm beat. I do not want to carry on acting anymore. But, I will still be here, hoping for a miracle to happen. A miracle that will pull you and me to be together again. After chatting with you today, feelings just stirred in my heart. A lot a lot of feelings... Memories also just come flashing back in my mind. The day when we first met,the day when you ask me for stead, the day when we went out for our first date, the day when we first hold hands and kiss. All the things that we had done together. Since 170606. Till today, it's our 10th month together. Yet, all things have changed. Sometimes, I really wished nothing had happen. I wished that you will still be there with me whenever I have problems. For the past 20 plus days, I have alot of problems. The first person I think of to find is you. But, I cannot. It's because it's just not the same anymore. I cannot always find you whenever I have got any problems. If not, I will be so irritating. I have been irritating to you since the day we have been together. Therefore, I cannot be irritating to you even more since we have parted. Maybe we might never ever be togther again. Even if this is so, I still hope we can remained the way we are now. To me, guys are out of my world. Of course, not for you. YOu will always remained im my world. But, I will never harbour any naive thoughts of being together forever with a guy anymore. It's just impossible. I really hope to change this situation. I really hope we can still be together. The problems that we had are all in the past. I'm sure it will never occur again if we were to be together again. IF that's possible. I am really wondering, why can't you just voice out your unhappiness about me? Why can't you do that? If you did, maybe we might still be together now. Why do guys just impose their own thinking on us girls? Can't they just spare a thought for us? Don't just assume everything when you hadn't even get the facts right. I hope it's not too late for us to solve out our problems. I really regret not cherishing you in the past. Will you still give me a chance to do so? I really truly wish that there will still be a day when we are still able to hold hands together and walk down the rest of our life together. |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
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