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Chun.YuI felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Wednesday, May 30, 2007
I'm dead beat ! ): I need a rest badly, I need a hug, I need a listening ear, I need a shoulder, I need a smile, I need a laughter, I need a bestfriend, I need a thanks, Most importantly, I need YOU. I need I need, What if all this needs is change-ed to wants ? What if there is no what if ? Maybe there is no maybe ? Perhaps there is no perhaps ? *taken from a blog I saw online just now* I'm tired~ Tired after all the supplementary I had today. Especially the 3 hour of GEOGRAPHY!! >.< Luckily, there's a bunch of joke keeping me awake. Hahas. The most funny part is Shawn and Mr Tan. Mr Tan: "Who is the mother of the Earth?" Shawn: " MOTHERNATURE!!" =X I know it's lame but... That's what make it funny. Hahas I've just broken a record for myself today. Hees. Manage to finish a plate of mixed vegetable rice within 10 minutes. 10 MINTUES!! =X I can't even believe it. But that's because we are rushing for time.. We don't want to be late for Geography lesson. In the end, there's still half an hour before the lesson start. =.= 10 mintues to gorge down all the food and the result? Getting a bloated stomach. LOLs. Tomorrow a break for us!! Vesak day. =D I'm planning to go out. Perhaps with QIU and XUEHUA. And maybe asking ZHU along. Don't know he want not... ZHU!! You want mahs? =/ I have the urge to buy clothes. MORE CLOTHES!! =X Hahas. That's typical girl. =] Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Yups. Here's the picture that we had taken last Saturday. =]                 YEAH~! ZHU send me the whole full version of the song sang by Redwan Ali "Would You Be There For Me" yesterday. Wahahahahas... I'm so damn happy. That song was very nice. Just listening to it make my tears well up in my eyes. =] We went over to Singapore Polytechnic today! The talk that the person gave me an idea ofr how to REALLY choose the courses. I didn't know that we can choose up to 12 courses. =/ Until today. Hahas. QIU and WEIYANG and ME had a great time over there at the Chemical and Life Sciences! =)) We chose Biotechnology. The teacher was so damn cute~ Her voice, her action, everything!! =X The things that she had taught us today were what Mr Leong had taught before. Lols. Nevertheless, I still enjoyed it. One of the things that I remember... She said, " A *Bo-Teh-Toe a day keeps the doctor away!". Well, I think I will rather choose NP instead of SP. NP felt more comfortable. Hahas. =D And it's closer to my home. BLEAH. =X ZHU was so tired yet he still need to accompany his brother for a fair at his school. SO BAD~!! Bully him norx... SOBS. He's so ke lian~!!! Moreover he has an exam tomorrow. =/ JIAYOU!! Just rest well bahs.. =) Sure can do it! *P.S She meant POTATO. =] Hmm... People do change over the time. No matter what happens, nothing ever stays the same. Perhaps, his thinkings have become more mature. He no longer thinks the same way. He had seen through everthing, that we might not last if we were to continue this way. So, why not end now and let us have some beautiful memories of our own. If not, we might hate each other if we were to continue. I think, I should give up. Just be his friends and treat him like how he treat me now. JUST friends. Nothing more than that. In this way, he might still develop feelings for me again. Rather than keep pestering him, making him dislike me even more. Right? Perhaps, I might change too. My thinking will change too. Till then, Will I still love him? Will I still persist like I do now? Will I? Monday, May 28, 2007
听不见,看不到 对不起, 我听不见你说的........... 很遗, 憾我看不到你看的........... 真的很抱歉. 我只能听见自己想听的. 我只看到自己想看的. 我真的, 真的也很痛苦. 寂寞 已经不记得坐在这翘翘板上有多久了. 有点无聊, 有点寂寞, 有点迷惘....... 只为了比你们高一点, 更接近洁白的月亮一点. 我只好坚强地假装, 这样比较快乐, 比较棒. 风吹过, 好冷, 屁股好痛, 尿好急........ 她一点也不重 每天都要扛着大象去上班, 再把大象扛回家. 有人问: " 为什么不骑着大象去上班呢 ?" 我怕大象会逃走, 我怕大象会受伤, 还怕大象不适应. 没关系, 我早已习惯背着她来来去去地过日子了, 我没有不快乐, 她一点也不重.......... 我每天扛着大象去上班, 你呢? 生存游戏 我们比赛, 游进海里. 你用尽全力拍击沙岸, 弹弹跳跳地立刻回到大海. 而我依旧呆蠢地困在岸边, 不知如何是好. 海浪渐渐远了, 我才明白, 你在求生, 我在游戏. All of the above is taken from the book written by 几米. I find that is just so damn meaningful. =] And some, reflect my thoughts. Yesterday just came back from XUEHUA house... Had a fun day with them. =] SATURDAY: Went over to bugis and we take dozens of neoprints. Did a lot of stupid thing. LOLs. And finally XUEHUA manage to become happy again. ^^ But, her dad called and we had to go at around 4pm. SO EARLY!! =X We went to buy the chocolate fondue ingredients. I spent $14.50 just on the fruits!! =.= So damn expensive lohs~ But still, we enjoy the chocolate fondue alot! It's damn nice. We had fun preparing them... ZHU almost kill me with the knife... =X But we did enjoy the chocolate fondue!! It's damn nice! We went crazy over the HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL show on Disney Channel. =] Around 2am, ZHU and XINJIE was already dozing on the sofa... I tried to wake ZHU up but I failed. I know I'm bad.. =X Lols. Anyway, left me and QIU. It's around 3am when QIU said she's sleepy... So I have no choice but to go and sleep as well. Cause I don't want to be the last to sleep. SO SCARY~! And there's nobody to accompany me. =/ SUNDAY: I wake up at around 6.40am. Was awaken when ZHU touch me. Hahas. My neck was damn painful. SOBS. All the other also wake up. Cause of me and ZHU talking? Lols. Yet somehow... When XUEHUA say she want to sleep cause she haven't slept since last night as she was talking on phone... All of us went back to sleep also. LOLS. I don't want de.. But I see them sleep I also nothing to do... So go sleep also lohs. Hahas. Yups. When I finally wake up( cause of ZHU also..), it's already 9.45am. Miraculously, all of them also wake up. Lols. So we were there, slacking around... XUEHUA went to plaza to help us buy food and also rent VCD with him. After we watch finished the movie "Just Follow Law", I went home with ZHU. FUN OUTING! =] I guess, I'm really an idiot. An idiot who don't wish to face the fact. An idiot who don't want to admit the fact. An idiot who don't wish to accept the fact. A BIG FAT STUPID IDIOT!!!! Can anyone shake me awake? I really don't know what to do... I know, it's pointless to keep pester him. It's also pointless for me to cling on to him. HAIX. It will only make him dislike me eventually. I just feel that I really can't do without him... I still hope that there's still a blink of hope for us to be together again. Sunday, May 27, 2007
从前，农庄里养了只公猪和母猪。 公猪非常疼爱母猪，常常把自己的食物给母猪吃 。 但，有一天起， 公猪常常把母猪的食物吃掉。 不久以后便被农夫给宰杀了。 原来,公猪听到农夫要把较肥大的猪只宰杀， 所以才抢走母猪的食物。 如果爱不能证明，我愿用我的生命去表达。 Your score:Brownie butter You scored 92% sweet, 62% chunky and 70% unique!  brownie batter ice cream with a rich brownie batter swirl Friday, May 25, 2007
Change of plan again. LOLs. Anyway, it's ok. The most important is that I am still able to watch my SUNRISE!!!! =X Hahas. SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ SUNRISE~ YEAH~! Tomorrow is the day! =) The outing with XINJIE and XUEHUA and ZHU!!! I'm so excited~ Hahas. But there's a change in our plan.. =/ It's kinda disappointing...But still, never mind!! At least we still get to go out together. Though it's without EELING. =X Yups. School holiday had officially started at 1pm today. LOLS. But there's no holiday mood... =.= I just feel like it's the same even WITH or WITHOUT having to go to school. It's because we still need to go back school for holiday supplementary. One good thing is that we only have to go back for the first 2 weeks. =] CHEERS~~ Cause of this slacking week, I managed to finish almost 1 of the Emath TYS topics that Mrs Tan had assigned for us. BLEAH. I'm hardworking yeah? =X Just joking... Meiyen is even more hardworking than me. She finished don't know HOW many topics le... ^^ I want to be just as hardworking as her~ =] The Japanese drama that I had watched yesterday is damn nice! =] It's One Litre of Tears (http://www.crunchyroll.com/showseries?id=521) . I bet that you will cry from the first episode to the last. It's kinda different from all the Japanese drama. It's a real life story and it's NOT a lovey dovey type of drama. Really... It's super touching. >.< Oh ya! Next monday is the Mother Tongue 'O' level le~! Jiayou to everyone!! Especially to 4/9. =D Don't play play huh... Lols. GOOD LUCK!!! Wednesday, May 23, 2007
He didn't message me~ SOBS. He don't care about me anymore? >.< Or I'm just thinking too much? Perhaps his prepaid card has run out of money? LOLs. Anyway, finished my English ( informal letter). Yups. I know I'm so hardworking. =D Really damn boring... =.= There's nothing to do.... ARGH. P.S Ah hong come find me le~ SOBS. Pain pain... I still love you. How I wished that we are still together. I hate myself. Can anyone please help me??? Tuesday, May 22, 2007
GUYS - Always making empty promises. Don't appreciate what the girls had done for them. Just love to push the blame to the girls as they hate to admit that they are in the wrong. They always do not know how to treasure people. And it's always too late when they finally realised it. To them, they think that women are naggy. When they said they love the girl, it's true. But when they said they don't love her anymore, it's true too. Time is precious. Therefore, when they think that this relationship is over, they will not hesitate to break off with the girl. But when the girl wants to break off with him, they try all ways and means to change her mind. Yet, the girls also failed to do so. Once the guys make a decision, nothing could change their mind. Computer games, basketball, footballs are all far more important to them. Guys would definitely want a girl to be gentle and obliging to them. And of course, it will be a plus point if the girl is pretty. GIRLS- They let their emotion rule their decision. Once they are in love, they will just focus their attention on the guys. Willing to make any sacrifices for the guy they love. Love playing the guessing game with guys. When they are not talking, millions of things are going right in the girls' mind. It always take time for girls to forget about a guy. When they want to break off with their guys, they will ponder over it for days for fear of hurting the guys feelings. Just some sweet nothings is able to make a girl smile happily and forget about all her troubles. Girls are easy to be decive. Jealousy is always the main cause for most breakups. To the girls, their beloved guys are always their first piority. Whenever they are in sad, they always wished that HE would be there for them. Girls would definitely want a guy who will dote and give in to them. Of course, some girls would want a handsome guy to be their boyfriend. But some, would rather not as having a handsome boyfriends make them feel insecure. -To be continue- Perhaps you do not agree with what I've said. Hahas. But, that's how I feel. Different people have differrent kinda views anyway. =] 不在乎有没有以后 - Energy 独自在房间的角落 点根烟让寂寞飘走 说起来失眠也不错 至少可以不作梦 难道爱会渐渐折旧 连回忆也变成折磨 真心的想给你一切 你偏偏只想要自由 现在几点钟 风知不知道你睡了 没有抬头仰望着天空 一起拥有过的快乐 像断了线的气球 不在乎有没有以后 爱你是活着的理由 紧紧的抱住跟你有关的一切 包括想着你的心痛 我们还有没有以后 牵着手幸福的以后 在你的心中千万记得还有我 永远守着我的承诺 在等候 Monday, May 21, 2007
Yeah~ Been a RELAXING day today. But somehow, kinda feel bored? I mean it, BORED!! Though there's no more stressful Math lesson, no more irritating English lesson, no more boring Social Studies. Hahas. Weird yeah? Yet that's truly how I felt today. I've got nothing to do except slacking arouind in the library... =.= (Though I've got Emath and English homework to be done, I just couldn't concentrate with the breezing air con consoling me to sleep. HAHAs. And there's the nosiy lower Secondary Students making a din in the library. =.= ) I'm lucky I don't have to endure much of this kinda days... Lols. Just this week and we are done. Yups. I'm so looking forward to this Saturday. =] Anyway, it's like everywhere I go, there will surely be people pointing to me and say, " Chunyu! You cut your hair?! " It's as if I'm an alien who doesn't go for a haircut so often. =/ It's kinda embarrasing you know? With so many people looking at you weirdly. I know my hair look weird and I can't even bear to look into the mirror to face the ugly fact. Lols. By the way, I'm NOT a Barbie doll. Nor a China doll. =.= How I wish that I don't have to wear any glasses or tied up my hair. At least I won't look so weird. ANOTHER HAIRCUT IS A MUST! >.< Well, I've a Chinese essay to be done by tomorrow, a English comprehension to be completed by Wednesday and lastly, my Emath holiday assignment. =/ It's only so little!!! REALLY. Sunday, May 20, 2007
I bet all of you had seen the weird weird advertisement on the drinks " Whatever" and "Anything". Hahas. It really makes me damn curious so I decided to try it out. Quite nice.. Actually, it is no different from any other drinks. The only winning point that make us willing to buy it instead of the other brand of drinks is that the drink contains different kind of flavour which you wouldn't know what it is in the can until you finally opened it and drink it. Interesting huh? Lols. I think this product is really successful as it trigger off the humans' curiosity with its mysterious name and advertisements. NICE! Definitely a MUST try. =] It's going to be the last week at school. =.= Really make no different to me. Lols. We still have to go back to school to have supplementary during June holidays. =/ And I've heard from XJ that we are going to have to perform one last time during the June. I think it's the song we played for the SYF. It's like so stupid? =X The only thing I'm looking forward to is the trip this Saturday. Wish that Zhu will quickly recovered and be well enough to go out with us. Friday, May 18, 2007
Yups. Like what rl had said in my tagboard, I pass my Amath. But, though I'm happy, my teacher is not happy. She said that either I didn't put in all my effort or I only put in half of my effort. HAIX. What else can I say? I wanted to complain to someone. I know that my teacher meant well but let me ask you, if you were me and your teacher said this, how will you feel? After talking to her, I suddenly felt that none of the people actually even bother to THINK that I did try my best. Am I really so lousy? What she say has really shattered all my confidence. I also hope to do well for both of my math. Is not that I don't want... But somehow, I just can't seem to get the marks that I wanted although I studied for that particular subject. I remember I told Zhu that I failed my Emath. He said almost the same thing as my teacher. That I didn't put in enough effort. I really don't know what to do. I wanted to burst out crying when I'm talking to her but I didn't. I don't want to embarassed myself in front of her. My result had already been an insult to me. I did felt better after a while. JUST a while. The moment I reached home, I went into my room. I'm disappointed. I've disappointed not only myself, but my teachers, parents, friends and HIM. I think I'm really not suit for him. He's so clever, getting almost full marks for his every ttest while I keep getting only a pass. He did make a correct choice. No matter what, I will still continue to do my best. Even though I think I might break down sooner or later. All I want is just a person who agrees with me and support me. Yet, I don't think sure a person exist. Wednesday, May 16, 2007
说你爱我 - S.H.E 下着雨 让尘气稀释回忆 我靠着你不出声音 看着你 看着斑驳的甜蜜 爱你困住你也困住我自己 我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口 隐隐作痛 你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口 也让我精神腐朽 说你爱我 变成一种问候 不如趁早放手 把爱坠落 让满地鲜红 说你爱我 变成一种折磨 不用陪我走到最后 我承担不起你的承诺 下着雨让尘气稀释回忆 我靠着你不出声音 看着你 看着斑驳的甜蜜 爱你困住你也困住我自己 我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口 隐隐作痛 你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口 也让我精神腐朽 说你爱我 变成一种问候 不如趁早放手 把爱坠落 让满地鲜红 说你爱我变成一种折磨 不用陪我走到最后 我承担不起你的承诺 说你爱我变成一种问候 不如趁早放手 把爱坠落 让满地鲜红 说你爱我变成一种折磨 不用陪我走到最后 我承担不起你的承诺 说你爱我变成一种问候 不如趁早放手 把爱坠落 让满地鲜红 说你爱我变成一种折磨 不用陪我走到最后 我承担不起你的承诺 Yeaps. Just got the news today. Mrs Tan told us that there's 7 failure with 3 people getting a straight F9 for Amath. AH~! I just knew it. It's must be me. I bet with all of you that one of them is me!!!! =/ I'm really nervous. REALLY. But I just got a hunch that I'm going to fail my Amath. BOTH of my math. See.. Even though at first I've confidence in my Emath paper but turn out... HAIX. As the saying goes, "The more hope you have, the greater disappointment you will get." Now I totally understand this feeling. Damn disappointed. >.< Well, all of you will know it when I get back my Amath paper on Friday. Zhu still not feeling well. It's been almost a week. ARGH. Really wondering what's the doctor doing. He's just not doing his job! Zhu went to see him for over 3 times and spent $148 for the fees and this is what he gets? NOT FAIR~ And he even tell Zhu to go to hospital if his asthma is still not ok by Friday. It's like duh? Why don't he tell him earlier instead of after Zhu had pay so much for his medical fees? Perhaps that's a BLACK clinic. BLACKY clinic. =X I pray that Zhu get well soon~ And that he don't have to go to hospital!!! =X It's really not nice to go hospital. But then, I will DEFINITELY go over and see him if he's in hospital. Choy choy~ Touchwood. =X We still want to go and shop de~! And there's next week. I'm so damn looking forward! =] Outing with Zhu, XJ and XH! So long didn't go out with XJ and XH le... =)) Our intended things to do during that day: Mango ice~ Neoprints~ Steamboat~ Shopping~ Sunset~ Sunrise~ Wahahahahahas. Damn nice itineary. =P Tuesday, May 15, 2007
给从前的爱 - 梁静茹 你语气是轻的 但意思我懂得 你转身 雨季就来临 有什么 洗不干净 对 你是对的 再牺牲 到底不值得 趁现在 友好的分开 总是好的 为何有了勇气还是不够 握紧的还是都放了手 摩擦里 一点点 一些些 消失了 相爱的理由 也取笑过他们 为何爱不持久 这一刻 我才晓得 忘记比思念长久 我一个人走 自由了 但要往哪走 我相信 你人是好的 但那爱呢 ＊为何有了勇气还是不够 握紧的还是都放了手 摩擦里 一点点 一些些 消失了 相爱的理由 ＃为何有了爱却还是不够 到了手还是都松了手 生活里 一点点 一天天 没发现 牵手变对手 难道压力在推 我和你才扣紧手臂 抵抗后疲惫 反而后悔 Repeat ＊,＃ SIAN. One word to describe how I'm feeling now. SIAN!! >.< Guess what? I finally add one more mark in my Emath paper. But, I STILL haven't pass it. Pathetic me. Just 2 more marks!!! I'm really pissed off by myself. How can I be so careless and let the marks fly off right in front of me?!?! Going to have another half day of HMT tomorrow again. Super boring! But it's weird that time seem to fly by faster when we are having HMT. Hahas. Anyway, Mrs Tan told us that she will be giving us back our paper on Friday. I WANT TO PASS MY AMATH!! At least let my pass one of my math please~ Sobs. I know it's diffcult because I even flunked the simple simple Emath paper. How am I be able to pass my Amath paper which is 10 times more diffcult? =/ Having confidence in yourself is half-way to success. Yet, I don't think I have it. Lols. CAN ANYBODY HELP ME WITH MY MATH? I DON'T WANT TO FLUNK MY 'O' LEVEL~! Monday, May 14, 2007
I finally find that Avril Lavigne's new album is damn nice! All the song in it are just so nice.. Lols. She rocks!!!!!!!!!!! All the other people are having their chinese mock exams this week AND next week. Kinda pity them... It's also isn't for those who's not taking chinese too. Guess what's our "programme"? Self studying by ourselves. WTH?!?!?!?! I would rather go home and study by myself. As if I will be able to study in school. It's such a waste of time... Our school is just so damn kiasu!! It's the same for our exams. Unlike other school who allows their students to rest at home and study for their next paper, normally our school will still continue with our normal lesson even though we didn't have any paper that day. =.= By now, other school have already finish their syllabus. As for our school, all the supplementary and extra lessons that we have, are just all useless. Till now we haven't even finish our syllabus. We are just so behind time. =/ Haix. Wonder how's Zhu doing... Hope he's well. >.< Sunday, May 13, 2007
Sobs~! ZHU is still sick. Having fever for so many days... =/ Yesterday went over to see him and I thought his fever was kinda ok le... Putting a cold cloth on his forehead is only kinda effective for awhile. HAIX. Instead of getting even better, his fever got worse. =.= What is the doctor doing!!! =X Stupid bacteria~!! Don't invade Zhu le lahs~ Please come and invade me instead.. I will be so happy to get sick. =] He's already feeling very xinku le... SOBS. Let him rest lahs... Well, I know it's stupid. Hahas. But, I still wished that it can really leave Zhu alone. ARGH. Friday, May 11, 2007
SHIT. I'm down with flu. I'm feeling so SICK now~ Just like ZHU. Hahas. Hell loads of homework to finish. =X Especially Amath. But well, I shouldn't complain. It's because I do need all those practices to polish up my Amath. Who ask me to be born with a brain which can't seem to do well in MATH? Perhaps it's always careless mistake. Yet, I don't think I should use that excuse to comfort myself anymore. STUPID is STUPID. I'm prepared to fail for my both of my MATH. Really... I don't know what's wrong with me. No matter how hard I try, I just can't get the things that I want. EVERYTHING. Is it because I'm having bad luck? Or is it because I really didn't try hard enough? I dont' know... My confidence is losing bit by bit everyday. Things really seem to be getting really bad. BAD BAD BAD... =/ When will the god stop making a fool of me? I'm always so closed to my target yet, I've never been able to achieve it. Just another stairs for me to climb and I will be able to succeed. However, that stair is always seem out of reach for me. It always disappear when I'm reaching the point. It's always making a fool of me. Am I really that easy to be bullied? Why can't it just let me be happy for once? All I want is not that demanding... Just let me have either one of my wish and I'll be contented. A pass in both of my MATH is good enough. I'm not asking for an A. If not, just let him be with me again. At least when I'm down, there's someone to lend me a shoulder to lean on. A pair of ear to listen attentively to me. A hug which can make me feel blessed and happy. Is it so hard to let me have another chance? Everytime whenever I feel down, there's no one to listen to me. Unlike in the past when even if my friends were not around with me, he was there. He's still there to help me and console me. Now, I've to face all my problems alone. I'm tired. Really. I'm scared I will not be able to hold on any longer. My heart had already been slashed several times. It's still bleeding. Thursday, May 10, 2007
FINALLY! I've finished all the tests. PHEW. Guess I will be getting back my Emath test tomorrow. Hahas. *Crossed fingers* Hope I won't fail. =X I've just gotten back my result for chinese. 80/110. Not bad? But there's some stupid mistake that I've made... >.< Kinda angry with myself. Yet, what else can I do? O.o I felt quite upset yesterday. I've talked to ZHU about it but I just don't feel better. I know it's all my fault. But, I just want to complain about it to somebody. I want to stop being so EMO. =/ Can anybody help me? Sometimes, I just want to talk to people about my problems. Not to ask them for solutions.. I just want to lend a pair of ears. I just want to say out all my problems. When I'm so sad, why can't you just try and understand me? It's not that easy as you think it is. Sometimes, even without trying, you will also know that it won't work out. Just like what you tell me when I asked you to give me another chance. I'm different from you. Different from you in character which I'm not that daring like you. Different from you in thinking which I think friends are not easy to get, let alone best friends. I'm not like you who have a whole bunch of good friends with a brother that you can talk to whenever you have problems. I don't have a sister who I can rely on or even go shopping with. All I want is just for you to just listen to my problems. I don't like to hear you talk to me in the way as if it's all my fault. It's not that I don't want to do it. It's nobody ever appreciate what I've done. Can you just give me your support? Like the way I did? I don't want to know all those theory that you got. I'm tired. Tired of this whole stupid life. I want to end it. Wednesday, May 09, 2007
GOSH. Lols. Today's Amath test was kinda difficult. Hope I won't make any careless mistake! =X ZHU finally went to see a doctor. I'm so glad. Guess he should be at the doctor now... Hahas. Really ZHU lohs!! =X Short short post for now~ Everybody must take good care of yourself. Nowadays, the weather isn't that good. Either it's so damn hot or it's damn cold. Hahas. =] TAKE CARE~! Monday, May 07, 2007
I'm so damn tired today. I think it's all the 2.4km run's fault. SOBS. It's just not worth my effort. No matter how hard I tried, I still failed. =X School became kind of fun nowadays because I'm sitting around NAI SHUI and NAI BA and NAI MA and of course, NAI TOU! Lols. =X I think I keep laughing during the lessons. Hahas. Recently, I feel kinda sad. SOBS. Not because of ZHU. But because of some otehr people... I just have this feeling that they don't quite like me. =X Never mind! Shall concentrate on my exam for tomorrow all the way to thursday. BUSY WEEK arhs~~ Lols. I've not even start to revise my Biology... 6 chapters to study! DIE. I'm glad that ZHU feels better le! Always make people worry... Say I didn't take care of myself, you also!! The pot calling the kettle back. Hahas. Anyway, stay happy! Don't sad sad... Keep quarrelling with your mother isn't good either. =) Only does more harm to you body. BLEAHs. ZHU TOU. ^^ Make your heart bigger~ Forgive and forget worx~!! Hope your throat will get better and that your mum won't nag at you so much. =)) Sometimes, people do take things for granted. They won't cherish things that's just right in front of them. Only when they had lost it, will they then only realised the importance of it. Which often, it's always too late. Hope all of you will be able to treasure things and people around you. =] Sunday, May 06, 2007
I've listen to this song before. But I never realised that it's lyrics is so meaningful until I happened to chance upon it's lyrics. It's nice~! =) 对不起我爱你 - 梁静茹 没别的只想说对不起 对不起我真的爱你 不管你会怎么想你怎么说 也不会改变我的决定 你知道有时候感情事很难说 很难说爱人或朋友 从前到现在我真的感觉要 一想你我的心就发烧 想给你听我的心跳 想你知道我睡的不好 喝水想着你 搭车想着你 合眼闭眼间出现的全是你 我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应 不想难为你 又不想放弃你 决定告诉你 对不起对不起我爱你 没别的只想说对不起 怎么样我都会珍惜 不管你会怎么讲 你怎么做 也不会影响我的心情 你知道有时候男孩更难捉摸 难捉摸爱人或朋友 现在到永远我真会感觉要 一想你我的心就狂跳 我的模样记不记得牢 情人卡有没有收到 读书想着你 听歌想着你 大地和蓝天出现的全是你 我才不管你的表情 我才不理你回不回应 不想难为你 又不想放弃你 决定告诉你 对不起对不起我爱你 你听一听我的心跳 你看一看我睡的不好 喝水想着你 搭车想着你 合眼闭眼间出现的全是你 我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应 不想难为你 又不想放弃你 决定告诉你 对不起对不起我爱你 I DAMN FED UP WITH MY COMPUTER~ >.< Stupid computer. Or should I said it's my stupid brothers' fault. ARGH~ If they go download anything stupid again, I'm going to kill them. I went to watch spiderman 3 with ZHU TOU yesterday! It's a really nice movie~ Hahas. It's a combination of comdey, romance, thrill, and of course, action!!! My emotions were like keep changing throughout the whole movie. It's really indeed a movie that all of you should watch! It's worth the money. =] Ending was nice and touching. Almost cried. =X Glad that he's finally together with Mary Jane. Peter Parker said a few lines of words at the end of the movie which I find that it's quite meaningful. It's all up to you to decide what's right and what's wrong. Sometimes, the decision that we had made might cause people to be sad but it's inevitable. So, I don't blame him. =] Really. I respect his decision. Although I still hope that we will still be together again. Hahas. Perhaps it's a dream that will not come true. However, I want to tell you!! I will perserve de~! I want to be like you last time when you never give up chasing after me. Hahas. ZHU TOU treat me to eat nachos~ Hees. Manage to starve abit of it into his mouth. BLEAHs. I enjoy alot yesterday though my legs keep kanna hurt. =.= Yeah, I'm really blur. Hahas. ZHU TOU~ Without you, I think I will really get lost in bugis lohs~ =X I'm a LU CHI! Hees. By the way, thanks for the movie. =] There's going to be lots of tests this weeks. =.= I think I will be quite busy... Hope I will be able to get a good result for my Amath. I must depend on this test to pull up my marks so I will do my very best for it. I SWEAR. Jiayou to everyone~ Especially 4/9. ^^V TO ZHU TOU: Friday, May 04, 2007
Imagine me without you As long as stars shine down from heaven And the rivers run into the sea 'Til the end of time, forever You're the only love I'll need In my life, you're all that matters In my eyes, the only truth I see When my hopes and dreams have shattered You're the one that's there for me When I found you I was blessed And I will never leave you I need you Chorus: Imagine me without you I'd be lost and so confused I wouldn't last a day I'd be afraid without you there to see me through Imagine me without you Lord, you know it's just impossible Because of you It's all brand new My life is now worth while I can't imagine me without you Verse 2: When you caught me I was falling Your love lifted me back on my feet It was like you heard my calling And you rushed to set me free When I found you I was blessed And I will never leave you I need you Chorus When I found you I was blessed And I will never leave you I need you Chorus I can't imagine me without you ZHU must be still sleeping. =X Lols. Well, never mind. I shall update about today. The Wednesday and Friday supplementary timetable should suppose to start today. But we actually managed to push it till next week. Hahas. =P 4/9 is just so great! But then, sad to say that NAI SHUI and NAI BA have physic supplementary so our outing is cancelled. Xh asked if I still want to go not, but since most of them can't make it so I said next time then we go out together lohs. But she like not happy... Just said then you stay and pei them lohs and rushed off. I was like stunned. O.o Didn't mean to so called PS you. =X Just had my SS test this afternoon. I think it's still ok. Hope I will be able to pass. Hahas. There's really alot of test next week. SOBS. Tuesday to Thursday. >.< Jiayou 4/9! Can do it~ Lols. Tomorrow going to watch movie with ZHU. I sweared I will starve him to death. Hahas. Bleahs. I'm watching the channel 8 show now... It's touching~ Although that guy is really very flirt. Married 53 wifes but in the end, end up with his first wife again. =X I really think no guys would really be faithful to their girlfriends or wifes. People do only treasure what they have when they have lose it. He's really lucky that his 1st wife forgive him. I'm just so envious for I know that it will never happen to me. What I've done, he will never forget nor forgive me... Just hope, we remained like now and that our relationship will not become worse. Thursday, May 03, 2007
Bleahs. Actually, I'm lazy to update. But, ZHU ask me to write. Lols. I've got a new nickname today. NAI ZHUI. Nice huh? Hahas. QIU QIU gave me that nickname. =X She's really pro in inventing name. I can't agree more than that. ^^ But after that she change my nickname to NAI BAO. EEK... I prefer NAI ZHUI more lehs... >.< Miracle happened today again. Our supplementary end earlier today so all the six of us went to MacDonald to eat. We are laughing so loud in the MacDonald and it was kinda embarassing but it's fun. BLEAH. Talk about so many crappy things. =] I just really feel that time pass by really quickly today. O.o Sad news to announce!! I failed my Chemistry!! AH~ I failed so damn badly!! =X It's pathetic man... My A1 has just flew away from me~ >.< NO!! I must buck up. I must pull up my socks. There's SS test tomorrow. I'm going to use up all my brain juice to memorise all the things. I MUST PASS IT~! Wednesday, May 02, 2007
SHIT. I keep having this stupid hiccup. =X Brr~~ Lols. Well, today's my so-called " Emath Common Test ". I should be able to pass provided that I don't have any careless mistakes. Didn't manage to finish all the questions. I think I spent quite a bit more time on drawing. =/ So much so that I concentrated too much on doing the transformation questions that I actually forget that there's still some questions that I haven't do. Those questions were those that I left out in the beginning because I can't really figured out how to do it. Ah~~ My marks~ But there's no regrets~ I really perk myself up to prepare for this exam. I did mugged for my Emath test yesterday hors!! Hahas. Friday will be Social Studies Essay on Housing. I enjoy learning SS. BUT, I hate writing essays and doing the Source Base questions. Hahas. Typical student, eh? =] Nice knowing all those knowledge... But it's kinda diffcult to apply all that we had learn and write it into essays. LOLS. LMAO. And there's the Biology, Amath and I think an English free writing. =.= Guess what the hottest movie that's just been released? Of course it's Spiderman 3~! I think I'm going to catch it this Saturday with ZHU GE aka Xiong gong zi. Hahas. IF we are not able to watch 200 pounds or Retribution. Wee~ It's been long since I've last watched a movie. =X So happy~ I'm going to get the nachos and popcorn and munch myself to death while watching the movie. Wahahahahahahas..... ^^V |
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