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Chun.YuI felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Sunday, September 30, 2007
More clothes~! Hahas. Yeaps, went to cut my hair today... Not much changes. Just more layers... LOLS. It's really a GREAT pleasure to go shopping with my mum. I would always get to buy something. =X Hehs, I'm like so evil huh... Oh well, I wanted to revise my Emath today. Though not as much as what I wanted to revise initially, I still managed to revise abit. LOLS. SAD. I guess I still miss you. BUT. That's suppose to be normal right? Lols. Memories are meant to be kept in heart. All it matters is that we were once happy together. =] Right? Now, I treat you as my friend and also, my DA GE. We have been contacting each other lesser and lesser. Maybe one day, we might even lose contact with each other. You might even forget about me. Still, I want to tell you that I would always remember you. I would appreciate if you would just send me a message on your own. Just a short message will do. At least I know that I'm still remembered. I will be waiting... Saturday, September 29, 2007
I saw the newspaper yesterday. I never realise that someone I actually know would died from a car accident. Though I don't know him directly, I'm still kinda shock that this kind of thing actually happen. What if one day this kind of thing also happen to someone that is close to me, or even me myself. Woah, I don't know how I would react. Perhaps I would cry? =/ And if I was the one, would anyone cry for me? Nahs, I don't think you would, right? 22 more days to O' level. I'm feeling really stressful. I'm waiting for 14 November to arrive quickly~! I'm sure we would definitely enjoy ourselves to the fullest on that day. ^^ Friday, September 28, 2007
Wee~ I didn't go to school today. =X Hehs, I spent the time at home to revise and do my Amath. Wahahahahas... I heard that Mdm Jiang was looking for me. PHEW. Luckily I didn't go school today if not... ^^ Accompany my mother to Plaza Singapura to take my brother's sim card. After that went to G2000 to shop for clothes. Cos' we got 3 wedding dinners to attend this month. There's one more next month. =.= People LOVE getting married at this month huh... Hahas. Does this shows that the government's policy is kinda working? Next week Monday having English and Emath mock exam. I'm so SIAN DIAO~ Until 5pm somemore~!! Thursday, September 27, 2007
I didn't know Christian starve too. BUT. They do it because they want to pray for somebody. Hmm... Perhaps I will do that too... LOLs. Of course, it's for someone who's worthy for me to STARVE. =X Wait for you - Elliott Yamin I never felt nothing in the world like this before Now I'm missing you & I'm wishing that you would come back through my door Why did you have to go? You could have let me know So now I'm all alone, Girl you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand And all my tears they keep running down my face Why did you turn away? [Bridge] So why does your pride make you run and hide? Are you that afraid of me? But I know it's a lie what you keep inside This is not how you wanted to be [Chorus] So baby I will wait for you Cause I don''t know what else i can do Don't tell me I ran out of time If it takes the rest of my life Baby I will wait for you If you think I'm fine it just aint true I really need you in my life No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you [Verse 2] It's been a long time since you called me (How could you forget about me) You got me feeling crazy (crazy) How can you walk away, Everything stays the same I just can't do it baby What will it take to make you come back Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me Don't leave me crying. [Bridge] Baby why can't we just start over again Get it back to the way it was If you give me a chance I can love you right But your telling me it wont be enough [Chorus] So baby I will wait for you Cause I don''t know what else i can do Don't tell me I ran out of time If it takes the rest of my life Baby I will wait for you If you think I'm fine it just aint true I really need you in my life No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you [Bridge] So why does you pride make you run & hide Are you that afriad of me? But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside Thats not how you wanted to be Baby I will wait for you (For you) Baby I will wait for youIf it's the last thing i do [Chorus] So baby I will wait for you Cause I don''t know what else i can do Don't tell me I ran out of time If it takes the rest of my life Baby I will wait for you If you think I'm fine it just aint true I really need you in my life No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you I LOVE YOU! I LOVE ME! I LOVE EVERYONE! ARGH. I think I'm not going to school tomorrow. There's nothing to do except papers, papers and more papers. =.= And there's another 2 weeks of mock exam for us. STUPID SCHOOL. I HATE MY SCHOOL. Wahahahahahas. They had a poor time management. -.- We will be having mock exams next week but it is until today that we got our timetable. CRAZY. We have to stay in school till 5pm next Monday and Tuesday. AH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Guys, they can't be trusted. If you take their words for it, you will only suffer in the end. Yups, that's true. When they promise you something, there's a possibility of 99.9% that they would break their promise. Pigs would fly if they said that they had never lied before. In the end, girls who trusted her boyfriend would get hurt instead of the guys. Why? Cos' they would always try to find excuses to make it seem as if it was all our faults. I don't know how they can actually do it but, it's true. They seem to have STM( Short Term Memory) cos' they would always forget about what they had said in the past. When they still love you, they would do anything just to make you smile. But when they don't, they would also do anything to cast you aside. All kinds of excuses would come out from their mouth. Forever? Nahs, I don't think so. Even if they tell you that they would only love you and only for forever, the moment they break with you, they would just forget about everything. Yeah, I also find it kinda amazing about how did they manage to scrap off all the memories and feelings so quick. Perhaps, they never did really love you before. Perhaps, they only wanted to get something out from you. There's no guys in the world who would stay true to a girl forever. Forever does not exist. Sometimes, I really wonder if you've really meant what you said in the past. Or did you say all that just to make me happy? Wednesday, September 26, 2007
1st October is coming... There's a question that I always wanted to ask... Why can primary school celebrate both Childrens' day and Youth day? Why can't secondary school celebrate both Childrens' day and Youth day? UNFAIR. Lols. Oh ya, next week is mock exam week. I hate it lahs... As if we hadn't been doing enough paper. =.= It's more than enough ok~! Doing more papers doesn't make us more perfect. It will only give us adverse effect which is, getting SCARED of doing papers!!!! Wee, just finish studying at Starbuck with XJ, XH and MX. I managed to finish 2 comprehension, excluding both summary. HAHAs. =] But I still feel kinda satisfied... Lols. Hey, it's really a miracle that I can actually sit down and do comprehension. 2 in fact... =X But that's also because I didn't do my homework. Hehs hehs... Left 26 days to O's. =.= I'm feeling DAMN nervous. Jiayou everyone~! We shall enjoy ourselves after O's. It's not long before we can get to relax and have fun~! Let's look on the bright side of the life. lalalalalala~~~ Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Hohoho, I studied Chemistry till half way and tada~ I fell alseep. =.= I'm a P-I-G. Hahas. Oh well, I went home early today, right after my 15 minutes lesson for SS. Oh yars, speaking of SS, there aren't any test today. Luckily, Mrs Liew just want us to have a discussion and let us home. WHEW, I didn't go for HMT. =X Don't blame me cos' I really don't find anything useful when I attend the lesson. =.= Hehs, HMT is not really that important to me, since I'm not going for JC. But still, I will try to achieve an A for it. Cos' I really hate to let my 4 years of suffering to go wasted. HAHAS. *Yeah, I realised that I'm starting to forget. Forget about all those things that I want ot forget. =] I feel accomplished. But still, it's hard to let go. Monday, September 24, 2007
PHEW. I just sorted out all my Chemistry notes. I guess it will be easier for me to revise bahs? Hahas. Anyway, haven't really started my revision. =.= Start and stop.. Start and stop half way again... ARGH. I really hate myself. I think I am really useless. LOLS. My determination aren't that strong after all. Hmm... I forgot about the SS mock exam today. I thought last week was the last one... BUT, nopes. Lols. NEVER MIND! I'm really lucky that Mrs Liew allow us to refer to our books and notes as the questions she gave were really tough. Hahas. =X Sadly, tomorrow's topic is Venice. EEK. I hate Venice lohs... =.= Though the place is beautiful, I really don't understand why we must study this chapter. It's like so damn useless?? Oh well, I'm planning to give up this topic. HAHAS. Might as well concentrate on the other topics which I am familiar with, right? =] JIAYOU. 28 days more to O's level. AH~ Less than a month. BOO~~ Anyone want to study with me? Hahas. **Happy early mooncake festival! =] Sunday, September 23, 2007
Guess what I eat just now? Curry. Wahahahahas... To hell with my sore throat. I don't give a heck about it since no people care as well.. LOLS. ^^ My sore throat getting worse. And yet, you said nothing. I guess it's really time to let go. Good bye. I am sure that I can still lead a wonderful life without you. Why should I still hang on when you don't even care? Right? Why make myself miserable. Hahas. With you in my life, I've been crying and sad, though there are still times when I am really happy. Maybe it's really a good thing that we are apart now. If not, I really don't know how much more I would cry over for you. :) Thanks. Thanks for all the wonderful memories. I guess I won't ever forget about you. You had been one of the most important person in my life. Now, you are my friend and I wish you all the best. Had an early celebration of mooncake festival yesterday. It was really fun. Although something happened before the celebration, my mood was not dampen at all. All thanks to my wonderful friends! The celebration was really fun and I swear I won't ever forget about it. =] Thanks to Xinjie, Rolling, Mei Yen, Wei Yang, Kia Yim, Mu Xing, Xue hua, Xue hua's brother and most importantly, Wei Yang's parents. Cos' if not for them, we won't have so many delicious food to eat and play at the same time. =] It is definitely more interesting and fun this year compared to last year. XJ, me, Rolling and Kia Yim was the last to leave. We played until 12 am and we definitely chatted alot and had lotsa fun. Jialiang and his friend acutally came too. LOLs. I was just asking if he wanted to come and he agreed. WOW. He change alot... Grow taller? Hahas. Anyway, they send me home. =.= It's really damn paisey ok... LOLs. Oh well, luckily they were there if not I guess I would be scared stiff to walk home alone in the darkness. =X I went home and bathed.. Chatted alot with Jialiang. Hahas. I think it's really been a long time since we last saw each other. Or should I say sms each other too? Lols. I am sure that I will and can forget about you. =] This shall be my target. It's really unfair that it's always you who make the decision. UNFAIR. Now then I realised that when a guy don't love you anymore, his attitude would change 360 degree. Hahas. How naive I was to think everything would stay that way. I guess I am really too stupid. But I'm glad I learnt a lesson. Never to trust a guy too much or expect too much when he said he would love you forever. The truth is, he won't and never will. Perhaps time is really a cruel thing as it can let a couples' love to be stronger or weaker. But what done can not be undone. I have to look forward and move on. Just pray that I won't get hurt again. I would rather I stay single than to let this kind of thing to happen again. Don't you ever give me any promises again. I HATE PROMISES. Friday, September 21, 2007
I just went to have dinner with XJ and her parents. DAMN paiseh... Hahas. Oh well, really thank them for the nice nice dinner that they treat me. =] EXHUASTING day today. =.= Lols. I almost fall asleep during the Geography lessons. Can't blame me.. 3 hours, 4 periods of Geography lessons. =/ Hahas. But at least I manage to endure it~ ^^ I feeling so HOT~ Not that kinda "HOT". LOLS. Hmmm... Study abit today... But still, it's NOT enough. Left one month and one day to O's level. =.= I guess I'll be going to study again tomorrow. Hahas. YEAH. MY AIM. I must achieve it. >.< Thursday, September 20, 2007
WOOTS. This week is almost over again. =.= Which means~ O's level is coming even nearer. AW.... I want more time, though I want to graduate from this stupid school FASTER. Hahas. Yeah... Just woke up from my NAP. Damn lots of homework for English AND Amath. Planning to study again on Saturday. LOLs. Not sure. =.= AH.... Nothing much to update cos' I'm still kinda in my dreamland. Hahas. Tuesday, September 18, 2007
OH YESH. I forget to update about something. I finally bought the MP3. But it's 2GB. Cost me $150~! =X Never mind cos' it is pink. =] Hehs, early dismissal today!! ^^ I was so happy. Wahahahahas. Especially when HMT lesson was CANCELLED and it was just the right timing. Oh, that's the only time I LOVE Mdm Jiang. Hahas. Hope the Thursday lesson for HMT was cancelled too. LOLs. Then I'll be able to go home early again~ BLEAH. Actually, I didn't go home after school today. I went over to Lot1 to have my lunch and also, to study at the library. I really wonder if I had my LUNCH or DINNER. Till now, I'm still full. =.= Oh well, had a GOOD laugh today at the library. LOLS. I don't think we study at all. I MUST PERK UP. I'M SO DAMN TIRED. EVEN AT THIS TIME. =.= Monday, September 17, 2007
OHS~ My stomach~!! =X I'm feeling damn uncomfortable right now. I wonder what's wrong with it. I keep LAO SAI. HAHAs. =.= Digusting!! EEKS. =X Oh well, I still plan to REVISE!! Especially my Chemistry. Hehs, I plan to sleep after I've eaten my dinner and wake up later at 1am to study. ARGH. But I don't wish to miss the 9pm show~ AW~~ Shit lahs~!! =X Yeah.. I know I said I won't be blogging often. BUT. I just can't fight off the urge to BLOG. Wahahahahas. I'm a loyal blogger. =] Topics I've revise:
Yeah..That's all. PATHETIC. Thus, I've to work extra harder~! Hope I don't fall sick. =/ My aims for this week:
Sunday, September 16, 2007
SOME people just have a big mouth. -.- News can really be spread to other people through them very efficiently. Oh no, I mean INACCURATE news. Just cannot stand them. Making such a BIG fuss over nothing. It's just so childish of them to react in that way. Hahas. So, any people who want to have their news broadcasted efficiently, just tell them. Furthermore, it's free of charge. LOLS. YEAH~ I actually managed to study for 5 hours. Woah, it's really a miracle for me. LOLs. I hope I can keep it up that way. Yups, I went to NLB yesterday to revise. I think I reach around 10am? There's like a whole crowd of people waiting outside the entrance of the library when I just arrived. And when the gate is open, they rushed into the library just to find a seat at the desk. =.= I must continue to JIAYOU. Hahas. I must REVISE MORE. =] I LOVE TO STUDY~!! I LOVE AMATH~!! AMATH LOVE ME~!! =.= Thursday, September 13, 2007
I think I will be going to the library this Saturday. Hahas. And I guess I will buy more books for my Chemistry. =X Hope all this help~ I want to PASS. I'm so god-damn TIRED. Tuesday, September 11, 2007
I've finally wanted to study. LOLS. Ok.. Maybe it's really a little bit too late. =X Oh well, at least I've started to study. BUT~ Not now. I've got all the materials I need for revision apart from one thing, MY TEXTBOOK!! =X Tomorrow!! I promised, tomorrow. I shall start my revision. >.< Hahas. Today was really damn tiring. Apart from having HMT lessons until 5pm, there's all the mock tests. =.= HAISH. Tired. But I will KAMPATEH~! Zhu, must jiayou too ok? =] I hope this urge of wanting to revise my subjects would not go away so soon. At least until after my O's ok? Wahahahahas. I guess I must be crazy. Gone crazy from all the stress I'm facing right now. =.= I think I won't update my blog so often. I guess? Hahas. I will try not to touch the computer and use the time to study!! ^^V Monday, September 10, 2007
OUCH. Blisters just love me lahs~ LOLs. My leg hurts so much. =.= ZHU must be scolding me stupid. Hahas. YUPS. Girls would do anything just to look pretty. =P I HATE SCHOOl. =.= I really hate SCHOOL. I'm like feeling the stress now. ARGH. It's only about 1 month away from O's and I've not even revise!!!! =X I really wonder if I can get into the course that I want? I felt so inferior whenever I saw my classmates being so hardworking. AH~ What can I do? I just don't have the mood to study. Plus my brothers, OMG. Somebody tell me how am I going to study with those 2 irritating brothers of mine at home? I think I can only study outside my house. =.= EEk. The more I think about O's, the more stressful I feel. There's even mock exams for us during week3. =/ I really had enough of MOCK EXAMS!! I must really BUCK UP. Pull up my socks. Hahas. SHIT lahs... I keep feeling tired. HOW to study??? The moment I saw my lovely bed, I just can't bear not to lie on it. LOLs. I want to buy CLOTHES. But, it's after O's. Hahas. That can be my motivation to study~~!! Sunday, September 09, 2007
AW~ I miss the Japanese food I eat yesterday. Hahas. It's so yummy!! Thanks to ZHU's recommendation. =] Shall go there and eat again... WEE~ I went out with ZHU yesterday. HAHAS. So fun can... Drop by at the Food Fair for awhile. People was like pushing and pushing and pushing me. I can't even stay a little bit longer at the stall to catch a glimpse of the food. =(( Oh well, there's also nothing much yummy either. LOLS. I wanted to buy a MP3. Like duh? I've already got one. LOLs. I guess I just wanted to use up all my money. =.= So, I only bought a shorts for my so-called shopping trip. AW~ I regretted not buying the shorts at OP. It's so pretty can... =/ NEVER MIND, I shall save up all my money and go shopping after my O's!! =] AH! I really enjoy yesterday. It's been so long since I've had so much fun. ^^ YUPS. ZHU promised to teach me when he's free. Must remember what you said ok!! =X Heh heh... I went to watch Ratatouille with XJ and XH. Hahas. That movie was definitely funny. I didn't really want to watch that movie at first, I rather watch Evan Almighty. Lols. Yet, it's definitely worth watching it. =] EVERYONE CAN COOK~! School reopen tomorrow.... SOBS. I've not finished my homework. =X I got a bad bad bad headache since yesterday. Thought that I'll be fine when I wake up today, it turn out otherwise. =.= I MISS YOU~ Bleah. Wednesday, September 05, 2007
I know ZHU might not be free on Saturday... Hahas. Yeah.. I may be upset. But I know you tried. Still, I wish you can make it. =] Well, my wish was not granted. Biology lesson was NOT cancelled. LOLs. Sad huh? But well, time seem to pass by quickly. Just when it's XH and my turn to give our answers for the paper, time was up. Wahahahahahas. I guess we were really LUCKY! ^^ And so, off I went to accompany them to have their lunch. Heh, I didn't have mine cos' I'm damn FULL. I don't know why but it just seem that my appetite for this few weeks had been poor. =/ Guess something is definitely wrong with my stomach. LOLS. But hey! I could use this opportunity to go on diet! Hahas. ^^V YEAH! Think I will be able to buy more clothes! Cos' I think my dad will give me $$! BLEAH. Perhaps this Saturday? If ZHU is free to accompany me to go out. Hahas. xD But of cos' apart from shopping, I should revise my work too. Oh gosh~ I just hate being reminded that O's is just only round the corner! I think we were left about one month plus? ARGH. Time is just not enough. It's the first year that O's being push forward. Why can't they cut down on the syllabus? It's not like we are able to memorise everything in the textbook in such a short time, compared to the previous batch. As if we were robots!!! If not, they should make it a more easy paper. =.= If not it's really unfair to us. >.< I really don't wish to stay on like this. =.= Being stuck here, alone, is the last thing I ever wanted to do. I hate being ALONE!!! I just simply hate it. Especially when someone who had accompany you for so long just abandon you all of a sudden. Haix... Do you know how that feel? I know it's been long since that day but... I still long for a day where we can still start afresh. Yeah, maybe I'm really an irritating idiot who keep bothering you. But have you ever wonder that you were once in my shoes too? Have you? I abhore the feeling that you only want to see me when you need me, kick me aside when you don't. I miss you!! AH~ Lols. I really love you alot. =] But do you even know? Tuesday, September 04, 2007
ARGH. I've got alot of sorrows~ AH......... I want to shout it all out. I want to get everything out of my mind. I want to STOP all this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Am I so good to bully? Am I really so naive? Am I really so stupid? O.o Will you help me? Nahs, I don't think you even cared. WOO~ I finish one of the Amath worksheet! Lols. Feel so SATISFIED. =] Finally I did something. But then, I think it's not enough. HAHAs. I haven't revise my Chemistry and there's a mock test on Thursday. =.= There's another Biology lesson for tomorrow. Hope he cancelled the lesson for tomorrow too! LOLs. Ehs... But O's level coming and I still have this kinda thinking?!?! I should really slap myself. =/ ARGH. I want to stop thinking about those impossible things. Can I? 他还好吗我多想爱他 那永恒的泪那一句话 也许可能蒸发 Monday, September 03, 2007
ARGH. I shouldn't have look at my past entries... =/ All those stupid memories just filled my brains. Yeah, it does matter to me. But what can I do if he doesn't even bother or care ? I really wonder if their brains were computers. Just simply press the "delete" and all the memories that they had selected will be deleted. Why can't I do that too? =(( Had been having stomachach nowadays. It's like happening so often!! =.= Going to toilet doesn't seem to work at all. HAHAs. Is it CANCER? Or ULCER? Guess not... LOLS. I got a BAD headache. =.= I guess it's due to the rain... SOBS. Well, there's suppose to be Biology lessons today. BUT. It was cancelled at the last minute. ARGH. I can like, sleep for another 3 hours instead of waking up at 8.30. >.< There goes my beauty sleep~ I went to Bugis to buy my bag. I saw a couple of bags which I like alot... Due to cash constraints, I bought the bag which costs 19 bucks. Hahas. Good deal... I'm satisfied with it. Next, I went to the Perlini silver shop and saw a star pendant!! It costs only 8 bucks so I bought it too. LOLS. Yeah~ I love that pendant. There are also earrings, bacelets... AH!!! Who want to buy it for me? I HAVE to start doing my holiday homework. =.= 3 Amath worksheets 3 Chinese essays 梦醒了之后 你转身就走 把我留在记忆中 Sunday, September 02, 2007
I **** YOU. OH YA! BLUE HOUSE WAS THE HOUSE CHAMPION FOR THE CROSS COUNTRY!! So touching~ It's my last year in school and yes! Blue house finally came in first, and not LAST. ^^ Last Friday was our teachers' day performance. All of us were busy making our hairdo. LOLs. I think we look cute with our hairdo. Hahas. And we must have impress our teachers and the other CCKsian with our amazing and cute performance. ^^ I will never forget the performance! It's really fun to be part of 4/9. =] I actually RAN for the cross country. But still, I only get in 101 position. =.= ARGH. So exsaperating! Lols. I almost got the water bottle. HAHAs. =X YEAH! I had an enjoyable day with XJ and XH yesterday. We were like being crazy in the middle of Takashimaya. =.= LOLS. Oh well, it's really fun. But the SAD thing is that I bought nothing!!! >.< I actually spent 30 bucks on just my lunch. Wahahahahahas. It's so satisfying. Our total bill was like about 80 bucks. It's so W-O-W. Lols. But I enjoyed it alot!!! ^^ |
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