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Chun.YuI felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Wednesday, October 31, 2007
My way of destressing? MAPLE. Hahas. Yeah, recently I'm into maple. =.= I bought a cute cute Elephant! Wahahaha. I'm like so childish can... =X I'm feeling sooooo beat. =.= FINALLY! I'm left with only 4 more papers. Wahahahahas. Luckily I don't have to wake up early in the morning to go to school tomorrow. I can spent my day SLEEPING. =] But well, I still have to study for my Biology. Lols. Had lunch with XH, XJ and ling at Macdonald after the HMT paper. It had been loooong since we last ate together. Hahas. After that walked around plaza and laugh my ass off while I tell ling about the David Copperfield's magic. And just now, I almost had a stomach cramp from laughing too much again at XH house. HAHAS. So damn many funny jokes lahs~ Blue bird. =X Yeah, XJ and XH should know what I'm referring too bahs? LOLS. I miss my boy. 7 more days~! :) Tuesday, October 30, 2007
I wouldn't be surprise if I were to get a C for my Emath. I make DAMN LOTS of careless mistakes. =.= I'll be hell damn happy if I were to get just a B. A B4 will do for me. ARGH. Been revising on my Biology. Not really intensive though. LOLS. Well, at least I did huh... =X Now I'm pinning all my hopes on my Biology. Since I'm SUPER sure that I'm not going to do well for my Chemistry. =/ So, tomorrow will be having HMT. =.= I've not revised on the format for the letters. HAHAS. Heck care, cos' whether I do well for it or I don't, it doesn't really make a difference to my L1R4. I want to dye my hair.. Perhaps natural brown? LOLS. Monday, October 29, 2007
 YEAH~ Love him. =] MORE CHICKEN ESSENCE. =.= P.S It's not my hand. LOLs. PHEW. It's really a BIG relief to me cos' I've just finished 3 papers today. It's mainly English paper 1 and 2 plus Emath paper1. And that means, I'm left with 7 more papers and I'll be FREE. FREEEE!!! Wahahahas. Well, anyway to me, 5th October is officially the end of O's. LOLS. Cos' 12th and 13th are just Chemistry paper 1 and Biology paper 1. LENG LENG lahs~ 1, 2, 3, 4 anyhow shade can le~ LOLS. Joking. Today paper was ok-ok. For the English paper 1, it doesn't come out like what I had expected. At least I think I still can manage though I kinda miss out something for my format. =.= The comprehension really need us to think REAL hard. LOLS. And the points for summary is like sooooo little lohs... I only managed to find like 13 nia? =/ Hope doesn't pull down my marks... As for Emath, I felt that I'm going to lose alot alot alot of marks due to my carelessness. AH~ Can I just die? Nei mind, tomorrow will be better~ Always look on the bright side of the life~ Paper 2 will pull up my marks~ lala~ lalalala~ WAHAHAHAHAs. =.= I think will be going over to XH house to stay on the 7th. Not really confirm yet. Hahas. But well, I'm really looking forward to it cos' my boy will be with me~ WAhahahahahahas. Ok, maybe I did lied to my parents about it but oh well, I DON'T CARE. =X Saturday, October 27, 2007
Wee, another slacking day. =X Lols. I just feel soooo damn relaxed. I wonder why? HAHAS. When I'm like going to have my English paper on Monday. And if I can't get at least a C6 for it, I don't think I'll be able to get into the business course. SOOOO.... I should really try to do well in my paper2. Cos' I've only got confidence in paper2 since there's like soooo many English pro in my school and they will definitely score for paper1 which does not include me. Yeah, that's how it is. Sad lohs~ I've secured a A1 for my chinese so I'm left with 4 more subjects with 14 more points. My target is to get 15 and below. Ehs, that's kind of difficult. LOLs. Nei mind... Like what my parents said, just do your best. Perhaps going to study with my boy tomorrow. Not sure yet cos' he'll be having tuition early in the morning and he might be tired. Lols. AH~!! I WANT TO JUST END THIS QUICKLY. After O's I'll be going to: go shopping with VYVON go to the places which I've beeeen longing to go to (eg; Sentosa) with my boy find a job with GOOD pay with my boy stay over at XH house with my boy & so on~ Wahahahahas. It's all about FUN. Labels: 17 more days to end of O's Friday, October 26, 2007
FINALLY. There's no paper for today, so I manage to like rest? Lols. Yeah, slack around the house today.... =.= But got study abit lahs~ Revise bit on Emath. Hope I can at least get a B for it though I'm always failing my math. YA. It's true. I even failed my Emath which is like so EASY. =X So, I guess I've to really do much more practice if I want to get a B for it. Yups, I spent a bit of time with my boy too. Bleah. But we didn't study. Slack around and play. LOLS. I think Sunday then study with him bahs... SIAN ARHS. Left 18 more days to end of O's. It's like still soooooo long. I have been pondering about what course I should choose for poly. I guess I will take those courses that are on management? I think that suit me alot more lahs... HAHAS. And also, there's my FRIENDS and HIM. =] Thursday, October 25, 2007
CHICKEN ESSENCE HAS BECOME MY BEST FRIEND!! =]  =] Might not be going to study tomorrow. Lols. I've been having insomia. =.= Keep waking up in the middle of the night and then, not being able to sleep anymore.. ARGH. Now is O's level period lehs~!! I think I'm going to go crazy soon. GEOGRAPHY PAPER WAS A KILLER. The map was so... =.= I'm glad that not only I think this way. Lols. This means that there is a hope for moderation. I hope... =] But oh well, I think I should also try to do well in SS. Oh yars, yesterday was Chemistry paper2. Ehs, I think I'm going to FAIL. Lols.Things that I've spent so much time on, yet in the end, it didn't come out. WTH lohs.. =X The paper was like so totally different from the paper we usually do. =.= NEI MIND. I shall concentrate on my Biology. Hope it won't turn out the same way it did with Chemistry. I'm SO DAMN HAPPY! Cos' at least I think I will pass my Amath? Lols. I hope so lahs~ I think it was an ok-ok paper. I just wish that there won't be any careless mistakes that will cause me to flunk my Amath. =/ 4 papers DOWN. 10 more papers to go. =.= I want to end this quickly!! I want to PLAY. Tomorrow will be going to study with Laogong. Must revise my Emath again. =.= Especially transformation. Shall ask the MATH pro to teach me again. =P And oh ya, BIOLOGY. I'm looking SOOO forward to end of O's. =] Monday, October 22, 2007
FINALLY. Amath paper 1 is over. Lols. I was feeling kinda nervous and lost during the start of the paper. But luckily, I felt better after awhile. HAHAs. Paper 1 was rather ok. Though I made a few careless mistakes. -.- Like so what lahs~!! I thought I've already been REALLY careful but... HAIX. Hope paper2 for tomorrow is going to be OK too. LOLS. Oh yeah, Wednesday is Chemistry. And I don't really feel that I've studied anything for it. ARGH. I hate that feeling. It's been 3 days since I last seen YOU!! =/ I misss you soooo much. It's a pity that your dad is at home today if not, I'll be able to see you~ Lols. Never mind! Tomorrow then... =] I'm having a BAD BAD BAD headache now. I guess it's due to the excessive use of my brain while doing the Amath paper just now. =.= One paper down, MANY MORE to go. P.S Thanks to all my friends who wished me good luck. ^^ Labels: 22 more days to end of O's. Sunday, October 21, 2007
Guess what. Tomorrow is actually the start of the O's LEVEL! =/ It's so damn QUICK. I'm like feeling super nervous now. AH~ I don't really feel that I've revised. PRAY THAT I WILL DO WELL FOR IT. Lols. Going to so-called revise for the last time tomorrow. Yeaps. It's been one week since we've been together. =] I'm really shocked and touched yesteday. BLEAH. I love you soooo much. I SAW A SUPER PRETTY NIKE BAG. Ah~ I want it. & that Levi's watch. =] Saturday, October 20, 2007
Post Yesterday went to Bugis/Marina with Laogong. LOLS. Finally, I got to watch movie! =] I've like been wanting to watch for so long... Hahas. So fun lohs... I promise that we will go and play pool, arcade and bowling after our O's level. BLEAH. Almost quarrel with Laogong yesterday. =X But luckily, things turn out fine after awhile. I'm really sorry... SHIT. Monday is our O's level. I really hope I can like at least pass my Amath. I don't mind a C6. I JUST WANT TO PASS. =x Yeah, going to wedding dinner later. =.= It's like so damn BORING. I rather stay at home and chat with Laogong than go to the stupid wedding dinner. I MISS YOU! Yesterday went to Bugis/Marina with Laogong. LOLS. Finally, I got to watch movie! =] I've like been wanting to watch for so long... Hahas. So fun lohs... I promise that we will go and play pool, arcade and bowling after our O's level. BLEAH. Almost quarrel with Laogong yesterday. =X But luckily, things turn out fine after awhile. I'm really sorry... SHIT. Monday is our O's level. I really hope I can like at least pass my Amath. I don't mind a C6. I JUST WANT TO PASS. =x Yeah, going to wedding dinner later. =.= It's like so damn BORING. I rather stay at home and chat with Laogong than go to the stupid wedding dinner. I MISS YOU! Thursday, October 18, 2007
AH! I cried. Lols. Go to this webbie. http://takey.myweb.hinet.net/miss35.htm It's a really touching story. Though there's some wrong words... Hahas.=] It make me realise that I should really treasure the time that I'm with you now even more cos' nobody knows what will happen in the future. P.S The story is type in the form of chinese words. I'm so damn happy today! =] My sha gua actually kind of gave me a surprise today. I only said that I've not eat my lunch and he actually went to bought donuts just for me to eat! I love him sooo much. :) Sorry to make you think that I'm actually unhappy because you bought food for me when I told you not to do so. I'm not unhappy, just feel heart pain for your money. Lols. But, I must say that I'm really touched!! Hahas. I guess I'm really lucky to have found such a nice bf. BLEAH. I feel so xinfu now. Woke up real early today. Around 6.30am? Lols. Then I lay down there all the way until around 7am plus and sent a good luck message to my SHAGUA. Lols. I actually did some Amath paper today. Cos' I suddenly thought about what would happen on next Monday when I'm doing my Amath paper. I imagined myself to be sitting down there, feeling REALLY panic because I don't know how to do almost all of the questions. =.= SCARY LAHS~!!! So, in order not to let this kind of thing to become reality, I've finally decided to finish all the paper that Mrs Tan had gave us. Yeaps. Tomorrow going to study with SHAGUA. Lols. Wonder what he going to do again tomorrow. I should get an amour shield. Or, I should train my hand to be stronger. And BIGGER. Wahahahahas. P.S Don't worry bout me! I won't have gastric anymore cos' I've got such a caring boyfriend and that's YOU! ^^ Why does everyone seems shocked when they know I've got a boyfriend now? LOLS. So shocking mehs~ O.o Hahas. Perhaps it is shocking. Cos' few weeks ago I'm like still not being able to let go of HIM, and I'm still so sad over the fact that he got a gf. BUT HEY! I didn't get a bf just because HE got a gf. Lols. I agree to be with him because I feel really happy when I'm with him. Morever, I had already gradually or I should say that I've ALREADY forget about HIM and it's all because of my DA SHA GUA. =] He's really a nice guy. The happiness that I feel whenever I'm with him is something that I've never felt when I'm with my ex. =X I love you! And I love you more and more each day. :) Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Just back from meeting him. &I miss you so much le... =] Da sha gua! I've not regret being with you. The times spent with you was really great. And I feel really happy. :) I love you for who you are and I think you are really perfect to me le... Nothing else matters as long as I love you and you love me. =] Well, tomorrow is your practical exam! Must jiayou ok? And, don't worry. I'm sure you will do well. Bleah. Oh yars, do your best for tomorrow and I will give you a reward. Something that you want. Lols. I promise you and I'll do it. Hahas. REALLY~!! I love you~ =] Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Yeaps. No more school for us. As in, this week is our consultation week so we don't have to go to school unless we want to go to school to ask questions. And well, that's only applicable for Sec4. =] YEAH. I tried studying at home but to no avail. I guess I just can't concentrate on my studies with my brothers at home. =.= They are so super irritating lahs~ And O's is like coming in less than a week? Hope peace will come soon to my house. I'm really scared that I won't do well for O's. What am I going to do if I actually failed? HUH! Someone teach me. =/ Yups, I met him today. Had another enjoyable day with him. He's so damn cute lohs.. HAHAS. But he always bully and make me malu. =.= NEI MIND. Next time he's going to get it. =P I want to announce something. He said that I can let my friends know. Hahas. I want to tell everyone that I'm feeling so BLISS now. =] And it's all thanks to him. I guess XJ and XH must know who I'm referring to bahs? Lols. Yeaps. Just came back from meeting him... Though I keep kanna BULLY by him, keep kanna SUAN by him, keep make me MALU, I still feel really happy when I'm with him. He's just so NICE lahs~ =) I truly wished that we will remain like how we are now till we are old. Hope history won't repeat itself again. I promise you that I will treasure the times that I'm with you now. =] You are the best! Monday, October 15, 2007
Jealousy is what all girls would have experienced before. Hahas. For me? Of course I do get jealous too. But, I trust you. =] And, I know that it's all in the past. Furthermore, I've learnt a lesson about this jealousy thingy in the past when I'm with him. I don't wish to let history repeat itself. So, yups. I don't mind. I guess? Lols. I know you won't disappoint me. Bleah What does mother do except nagging, nagging and more nagging? It doesn't matter if they nag at you. What really matters is that they actually SHOUT and nag at the same time. How irritating could that be? =.= I think that is the main reason for my headache. ARGH. Can't wait for tomorrow to COME. *IMY. HEADACHE. BIG BIG HEADACHE. =( Just changed my blog's song. Hahas. I love this song lahs~ =] It's so sweeeeeeet. And guess what? It's kinda special to me too. BLEAH. Tomorrow going to XH's house for awhile. Cos' she's sick and SOMEONE wants to pay her a visit. So, end up me and XJ had to accompany that SOMEONE too. If not, that SOMEONE will not be able to meet her and I guess XH will be so sad lahs.. Yeah, thanks. I know I'm good. LOLS. But well, will only be going for a while cos' I've got things to do. No, should say I've got to meet somebody. Hahas. Oh yars, I should be studying now cos' I promise GUAI KIA. But just can't seem to get rid of the urge of wanting to BLOG. Wee~ O's level practical is coming soon. So, GOOD LUCK to those who will be taking the practical exams. =] Especially, GUAI KIA! Lols. I'm lucky that my school opt for the SPA for the pure science class. At least I won't feel so panic. HAHAs. JIAYOU! Next week is our O's le~!! Quick seh~ But then, look on the bright side of the life. It's less than a month to the end of our exam. Lols. Crazy lahs me~ O's haven't start and I'm here thinking of the last day of exams. =.= YUPS. So, I'm now going back to mug!! =] Sunday, October 14, 2007
Today mark a NEW beginning for me. A new life, a new me. =] Well, went to Jurong Library to study. THE AIRCON AT THE LIBRARY IS COLD DE LOHS~ Phew. Almost freeze to death. Hahas. Well, at least I manage to like study? =X After that went to slack around again. =.= Like so what lahs~ LOLS. Short post for today. I'm TIRED. Hahas. It's really been a fun and enjoyable day. Though SOMEONE keep bullying me. =.= Oh well, I just LOVE today lahs~ TO GUAI KIA: Must take care!! Don't walk around too much. Later you can't walk than nobody to accompany me to the places I want to go le.. =x Hahas. Yups. And, DRINK MORE WATER. Hmm.. I think I've never been so happy ever since the day he leave me. But then, I think I should thanks him. LOLS. If not, I don't think my life would be so wonderful now. Saturday, October 13, 2007
LOLS. GUAI KIA so funny lahs.. =.= And oh ya, I date GUAI KIA le. Nono.. Is he ask me date him de. Hahas. Dinnertime!! If I don't eat, SOMEONE not gonna talk to me. AND HEY!!! I've got a free pair of movie tickets lohs... Who want accompany me to watch? =] TODAY IS SUCH A WONDERFUL WEATHER~!! It's been such a long time since the weather had been so cooling~ =] But, I think I woke up arond 9? When this kinda of weather is the best for us to sleep till we die? HAHAS. Weirdo me lahs~ Perhaps cos' I didn't take my dinner last night so my stomach woke me up to go and find something to eat. =.= Ok... I've had such a FRUITFUL DAY at home today. Did nothing but slack around, watching TV. =X Oh no. I just came back from taking my contact lenses. That uncle is so nice lahs~ =] I deleted almost all of his message that he had sent to me when we are still together. OMG. I can't believe I actually did that. Hahas. And I like haven't MISS him for erms.. A long time? I think I've really gotten over him le.Wee~ I feel so accomplished. It's really like putting a stone that had been in me. I feel so happy and relief now. Many more things awaits me huh... ^^ I've got an urge to watch movie. =.= When I'm like supposed to be revising HARD at home. HAHAS. See, weirdo me. To GUAI KIA: You better save up your money. I want my EXP meal.=] And, stop being so HORNY can anot. LOLS. Friday, October 12, 2007
Wee. Today was fun lahs... LOLS. Wake up early in the morning cos' I'm meeting Jialiang at 9.30am. Finally get to eat my MAC breakfast. HAHAs. Just suddenly feel like eating lohs... =] And further more, he OWN me a meal. Yups. After that, we went to library to study. Spent about 4 hours? LOLS. Yet, I got tired of it and we went walking around Causeway. DAMN boring lahs... Nothing to shop. Hahas. Yeah.. So we went back to library not to study, but to chat. I keep kanna suan by him lohs....=.= Oh well, he also lahs. HAHAs. After that went to Bugis. I don't know what came to us but ya, we went to Bugis. Walked awhile before going to Esplande. HE mountain turtle lahs.... Dont know that we can go up to the rooftop of the Esplande. =.= Nearly lost my HANDPHONE. I was lucky that he was around. If not, I'm sure I'll cry to death. AGAIN. Lols. I'm feeling sooooo dizzy right now. =.= STUPID BUS. Wednesday, October 10, 2007
SIAN-ED. There's no school today. But I'm cooped up at home doing nothing. HAHAS. I hate him!!!! =X Hmm.. Actually wanted to do my Amath. BUT, on second thoughts, NOPE. I just don't have the mood to do anything. I just want to laze around and do nothing at all. =.= But, I would also like to go out. Initially, planning to go out with him. But, after that changed plans. When I've finally decided to go out with XH and XJ instead, XJ told me her mum don't allow her to go out. =/ SIAN-ED lohs.... So, as a result, I didn't go out at all. Can't possibly ask me to be a lightbulb right? Now, my mum is asking me to accompany her to go to Toa Payoh to look at flats. Yeah, my parents planning to move house. Lols. Good lahs.. New environment, new life, new me. Who want to go studying with me at library? Lols. I really just couldn't study at home. STUPID BROTHERS. Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Check out this quiz. got it from Chong Ying's blog. Kinda true. At least most part for me. =] Hahas. Oh well, here's the webbie. http://memoriter.net/flash/test.html TIRED. Had Amath and S.S paper today. I was like doing the paper with half of my eye lids close. HAIX. Just don't have the mood. Lols. Anyway, didn't do my S.S paper. I was sleeping until my teacher wake me up. Hehs, I think I've become even lazier than before. YEAH~! There's no school for tomorrow cos' it's our school marking day. Shuang lahs~~ ^^ Still, I don't have much appetite. =/ Met up with Jialiang just now and he wanted to treat me to the meal that he own me, but too bad so sad! I'm not hungry. Lols. Ohs, and I really thanks him for the company. =] Just had our Graduation Ceremony. Way too early to have it, right? But, oh well. School's arrangement is like that. HAHAS. I almost cried lahs... =X Looking at our photos, from secondary 1 to secondary 4, really gan chu liang dou arhs~ Time really pass by sooo fast. The speech given by our teachers was really touching! Though they said almost the same thing, but still, we were touched. Especially Mdm Prema. She actually CRIED!! =X The present we gave Mrs Tan, was really pretty. All thanks to Mei Yen and the others... I think she was shocked to see us giving her present. Lols. We even ran up stage... Cool lohs!! =] Hmm.. I guess this Thursday and Friday will be the so-called last time we will be in the same classroom to study again. Really wish all of you good luck for O's level. It was really fun and nice to be in 4/9~!! =] Great to have all of you as my classmates. Didn't regret getting into this class. I hope, we will still be able to stay as good friends even though we are separated. Let's all keep in touch~! Monday, October 08, 2007
If today was my last day on earth, will you come and see me off for the last time? Perhaps, you don't even regret it. Same script, different cast. NICE song~ ^^ Though it sound kind of jealous and bad, that's not what I meant. You understand. Right? [Whitney:] Um? Hey Deb. [Deborah Cox:] Mmm hmm? [WH:] Thank you for being woman enough to come. [DC:] Whitney, what's this about? [SUNG] [WH:] I know he's leaving me for you. [DC:] Who said that? Who told you that it's true? [WH:]What is he tellin' you? Could it be the same things that he told me? [DC:] He told me that he loved me. [WH:] I heard that. [DC:] He told me I was (harmony) beautiful. How did you know? How did you know? [WH:] Because I played that scene before. [CHORUS:] This is a retake of my life. I was his star for many nights. Now the roles have changed, And you're the leading lady in his life. Lights, camera, now you're on. Just remember you've been warned. Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last. Same script, different cast. [DC:]What you're saying could be true. But how can I take advice from you? [WH:]I'm not hating, But I wish the one before me Would have warned me too babe. [DC:] Don't say no more. La La La La La La La La La [WH:] Uncover your ears, girl. [DC:] I'm not listening. La La La La La La La La La [WH:]But I know you hear me. Maybe my reasons are wrong, But I know that you believe me. [CHORUS] [DC] It's your fault you didn't love him enough. [WH:]That's the problem. I loved him too much. And when you love him He becomes unattracted to you. [DC:] Oh no, he's changed and I'll prove you wrong. [WH:] No you won't. [DC:] So go away. Leave us the hell alone! He loves me. [WH:] He'll hurt you. [DC:] He'll stay with me. [WH:] He'll leave you. [WH and DC:] For sure! For sure! [CHORUS] [DC:]This is a retake of my life. You were his star for many nights. But now the roles have changed. I'm the leading lady in his life. Lights, camera, now you're on. Just remember you've been warned. Enjoy it now, 'cause this will last. I'm the future, you're his past. [WH:]This is a retake of my life. I was his star for many nights. Now the roles have changed,And you're the leading lady in his life. [WH and DC:]Lights, camera, now you're on. Just remember you've been warned. [WH:] Enjoy it now. [DC:] Enjoy just now. [WH:] It won't last. [DC:] I know it will last. [WH and DC:] Same script, different cast. You have your happiness. Where's mine? Life's just so unfair. Can't I even live my life peacefully, With no troubles at all? HEAVEN~!! All I wish is just to be able to live happily with all my friends and family. Will you grant me this wish? =/ I really wish to be your best friend. But I guess I'm being deny of that chance. Hahas. Pathetic. Sometimes, I blame myself for being so naive. I guess I'm feeling better today. =] Thanks for all your concern. It's great. At least I get to JIAN FEI~!! Lols. I feel that I've lost some fats. Or no? Hahas. Everything seems so clear to me now. It doesn't matter who you are with. As long as you are happy, I'm happy too. For I don't think I'll be able to stay with you forever either. Hahas. Maybe Heaven is playing a joke on me bahs... =] Even if anything happen to me, you won't be affected too, right? So I guess there's no need for you to know it. I've seen through everything. Even if you treat me coldly, I don't mind. Even if that's not what a best friend should do should his/her friend is in trouble. I think, I'm not even a friend to you? I don't ask for much. Just some words of concern from you will do. Is it so difficult? Well, all I wish for now is that you will still remember me in future. Will you? *I pray that you will stay healthy and happy forever. With her :) Saturday, October 06, 2007
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me.She was my so-call ed "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair. I wished she were mine, but she didn't notice me like that.And I knew it. After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before, and I handed them to her.She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'mjust too shy. And I don't know why. 11th Grade The phone rang. It was her on the other end. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes,wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, aDrew Barrymore movie, and three bags ofchips, she decided to go tosleep. She looked at me, said "thanks,"and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.I love her,but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why. 12th Grade The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick," she said.He's not going to go. Well, I didn't have a date and in 7th grade we made a promise that if neither of us had dates we would go together just as "best friends," so we did. Prom night after everything was over I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her.She smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said, "I had the best time,thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why... Graduation Day A day passed. A week passed. A month passed. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and she cried as I hugged her. Then, she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "You're my best friend, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her.I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why? A Few Years Later Now, I sit in the pews of the church.She is getting married,now. I watched her say, "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said, "You came!"She said, "thanks!" and kissed me on the cheek.I want to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why... Funeral Years passed, and I looked down at the coffin of the girl who used to be my best friend." At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: "I stare at him wishing he were mine. But he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him. I want him to know that I don'twant to be just friends. I love him,but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me…" I wish I did too…I thought to myself, and I cried. If you want to express your love to your loved ones, please do tell him/her. Cos' if not, you might regret it for the rest of your life as you won't know what would happen tomorrow, the next day, next week, next year... Maybe you won't ever get the chance to do it anymore... Treasure the people around you! I love all my friends~!! I love YOU~!!! Some pictures to upload. Taken on the day where we celebrated the "mooncake " festival. HAHAs. That's like so long ago....         Remember, I'll always be there for you. If you have any troubles, I'll lend you my listening ears. =] Even though you have her... I'll still be with you. And I know, I'm just a best friend to you. So, don't worry. Feel free to talk to me any time. XINJIE~ Please don't link me with him. If not, YOUR secret will be out! HAHAS. Wee! Just came back from XH house. Hahas. Had a fun and enjoyable day with XH and XJ. Bleah. And, we talk alot alot alot alot... Been long since we had a heart to heart talk. =] Oh well, it doesn't matter if you understand me anot. All it matters is that I know what I've done for you. Did revise abit about Chemistry. But I guess I've forgotten what I've revise. HAHAs. Pathetic. I think I spent most of my time day dreaming. Lols. Slept at around 3am yesterday. Just can't get to sleep yeah... Maybe it's the weather? I hope so. Lols. My stomach hurt soooo much lahs.. I think it's getting worse. =X Ehs... Really hope nothing is wrong. I would rather this pain is caused by gastric instead of other weird diseases. HAHAS.Cos' I've not been eating regularly recently. No appetitite lehs... But who knows huh? Maybe I'm really so UNLUCKY that all the bad things befall on me together. PISCES - The Dreamer, Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and Saw this in my email today. Xiong sent me this... I think it's sooooo inaccurate. At least for me. Cos' I'm not beautiful, I'm not a good kisser, I'm not creative, I'm not loving....=.= Friday, October 05, 2007
I never want to step out of my house again. Or perhaps, I should even move out of my house. Hahas. You just seem to appear everywhere......... I hope I still can concentrate on revising for my O's. =/ Yeah, now me and XJ is crazy over GUYS. Hahas. Just saw a cute guy at Jurong library now. =] Asked MX to help us take number but... LOLS. Oh well, never mind. We still got plenty of chances. BLEAH. Initially, Jialiang wanted to meet me. But due to alot of reasons, end up didn't manage to meet him. Hahas. There goes my meal~ =X But, I must really thanks him. Soon, it'll be our graduating ceremony. It's on next Tuesday. Time really pass by so fast. So fast till I hardly managed to catch my breath. Hope all things go well for my friends. =] I'm sure, we will be able to achieve what we want~! P.S Thanks for all the care and concern all of you had given me. =] I'm really glad to have all of you as my friends! Don't worry, I'm sure I'll be ok soon. I'll be back to the old me, happy-go-lucky. Hehs, yeah. The crazy me will be back. Must wait arhs.... ^^ 你一定要幸福! Only then, will I be able to really let go. =] 不会太久-江美琪 转眼微风忽然停了 就像我们之间忽然就 什么都不是了 这样也好没有干扰 未来可以有自己捏造 好不好 我知道你真的曾经深爱过我 只是你的心中还有其他的美梦 我知道分开的时候你也真的难过 只是不会太久 自怜自责都已走过 我喜欢过现在的生活 又自由又寂寞 不是软弱因为想透 与其把爱变成了负荷 就放手 我知道你最爱的人绝不是我 我只是当时可以安慰你的梦 你不是喜新厌旧 只是还没有把握 爱得不会太久呵... 咳... 我知道你最爱的人绝不是我 我只是当时可以安慰你的梦 你绝不是喜新厌旧 只是还没有把握 爱得不会太久 只是不会太久 I guess, this song is the best to describe how I feel now. =] Thursday, October 04, 2007
我怀念的 - 孙燕姿 我问为什么 那女孩传简讯给我 而你为什么 不解释低着头沉默 我该相信你很爱我 不愿意敷衍我 还是明白 你已不想挽回什么 想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐 可是为什么 却苦笑说我都懂了 自尊常常将人拖着 把爱都走曲折 假装了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸 狼狈比失去难受 我怀念的是无话不说 我怀念的是一起作梦 我怀念的是争吵以后 还是想要爱你的冲动 我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌 记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口 谁记得 谁忘了 想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐 可是为什么 却苦笑说我都懂了 自尊常常将人拖着 把爱都走曲折 假装了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸 狼狈比失去难受 我怀念的是无话不说 我怀念的是一起作梦 我怀念的是争吵以后 还是想要爱你的冲动 我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌记 得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口 谁忘了 我怀念的是无言感动 我怀念的是绝对炽热 我怀念的是你很激动 求我原谅抱得我都痛 我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着 记得感觉汹涌 最美的烟火 最长的相拥 谁爱得太自由 谁过头太远了 谁要走我的心 谁忘了那就是承诺 谁自顾自地走 谁忘了看着我 谁让爱变沉重 谁忘了要给你温柔 我怀念的 我还有想要爱你的冲动 我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌 记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口 我放手 我让座 假洒脱 谁懂我多么不舍得 太爱了 所以我 没有哭 没有说 I HATE THIS WEATHER. It's driving me crazy. =.= I feel so WARM till I've really got no mood to study. AH~ Tomorrow will be going to library to study again. Hope the air-con will help me cool down. Hahas. Slack for around 4 plus hour before we had our Amath paper. LOLS. Cos' before that was Physics paper which, I didn't take. So, yeah. Revise my Amath again. Lucky I pass the exam. Wahahahahas. But that's also because the paper was easy. =X YEAH~ I got free meal. LOLS. Jialiang own me meal for my Chidlren's Day gift. Hehs, didn't really mean it but oh well.. Who cares. I get my FREE meal afterall. Whee~ He also told me that Weiyang, the guy who has the same name as Weiyang, was in the same class as him. LOLs. I was kinda surprised that Weiyang actually still remember me. =] Hahas. 我一个人走 天涯海角里继续走 你会否明白我感受 不是要自由 只要挽你的手 如果当天我们不放手 能不能回头 Wednesday, October 03, 2007
I'm feeling so HAPPY today~!! I left my handphone with XH yesterday. End up, I have to use my old phone with my perpaid card. =.= Jialiang saw me at plaza yesterday and he wanted to accompany me to go back home initially. But too bad. I didn't saw the message cos' my phone was not with me. Hahas. The map for Geography today was HARD, to me. LOLS. I guess I have to really do more practice on map... Speaking of practice, I just finish revising my Amath. Wee, I feel so happy. =] There's going to be another SS mock exam. SIAN LOHS....... I think I'm going to fall sick soon? Hehs, headache arhs...... 18 more days to O's. =.= S-T-R-E-S-S. Yeah, thanks for the message. I'm really happy to see it. I'll do what I promise you. Really, thanks. =] Tuesday, October 02, 2007
FINALLY. I'm done with my English and Emath papers. =.= I guess what I did for the mock exam is just useless in helping me to prepare my O's. ARGH. How I wish this would be over soon. I'll sure THROW away all my worksheets after my O's. They are such an eyesore~ My room looked sooooo messy with all the books and files that are pile up on my desk and book shelves. =/ Any one willing to help me tidy up? Hahas. Tomorrow is Social Studies and Geography. Woah. Two subjects that need memorising on the same day. CRAZY. Lols. Hope the map for Geography tomorrow won't be that difficult huh? =X I really hate doing those MAP questions. Yeaps. Next Wednesday is a marking day. Which means, we don't have to go to school. Wahahahahas. Planning to take a break from all the mugging on that day. =/ Not really sure. It all depends on one person. Lols. I'm exhuasted. =/ Perhaps even a JIAYOU from you would make me feel energetic and motivated. :) Monday, October 01, 2007
Oh yeah! By the way, HAPPY CHILDRENS DAY~!!! Wee, to me. Lols. To my surprise, two of my teachers actually gave us present for Childrens' Day. Hahas. Guess they must have this thinking that we are still young huh? But, I do agree. =] I'm YOUNG~ Ellos, where's my Children's Day gift? =) OUCH. My stomach~ =C PAIN ARHS. First day of mock exam. And I think it's really a waste of my time. Instead of letting us do the paper and mark it ourselves, why not just let us have 3 weeks of consultation week?!?! ARGH. It's really useless lohs... I wonder who came up with this kinda arrangement. =.= HAIX. Oh well, except for today and tomorrow, at least we kinda still get to release early from school. Planning to revise together with XJ and XH. BUT. Without XJ around, it's really kinda weird hanging around with the other 2. LOLS. Who want to accompany me~~~ =/ Left around 3 more month before our next turning point in our life. Fast huh? Whether we get what we desired, it all depends on ourselves. The time is now and the person is you. We have to work hard ourselves in order not to regret in near future. Let's all work hard towards our goals~! =] P.S I'm glad to hear that :) |
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