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Chun.YuI felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Thursday, February 28, 2008
OK! Still slacking at home. -.- Luckily there's work tomorrow if not, I guess I'll go crazy facing the computer, TV, magazine and PSP. I need to do something to get my mind off it. If you just realize, what I've just realize & we'll be perfect for each other & we'll never find another... 也许还会想念 也许还想看见 也许还有感觉 也许还要安慰 也许这一切该完结 Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Read through my previous posts and memories just came crushing down. There's just so much happiness and unhappiness that had happened to me. Perhaps Heaven is trying to make my life to be more interesting? Who knows? Why did I allow myself to continue sinking deeper in it? My time had been continuously spending on using computer, watching shows, playing PSP, eating, sleeping, reading magazine and thinking. -.- Can I just stop missing? Life is getting more and more boring. I'm missing the days I had spent in school. I guess I'll never forget about it. How I wished we can study together again. Of course, without the stress. LOL. The stress that we endured before O's level is ENOUGH and I'm glad it's all over. (: Currently addicted to listening to 987FM everyday before going to sleep. All because of the Muttons. LOL. They are really funny, which make me wide awake instead of falling asleep on my bed. -.- But well, do tune in to it if you are feeling despressed due to some reasons. It'll definitely cheer you up. I wish my social circle is wider. At least I'll get to hang out with other friends when XJ and ling are studying, RL is working and XH can't get out of the house. HAHA. Maybe that will come true when school starts? I shouldn't continue it anymore. It's miserable for me. But that's the only way to find out. HAIX. I'm such an idiot. Tuesday, February 26, 2008
YIPPEE!! My tagboard is fine now. Well, been home for the whole day. DAMN BORING. I'm really looking forward to the start of the new life in poly. Wonder how it will be... LOL. My colleague told me alot of things about SP which make me even more excited about poly life. ^^ I still own JL a meal for a really looooonnnggg time. I promised to treat him to a meal when I got my pay and now, I'm already going to take the third pay. HAHA. He didn't want me to treat but well, I don't wish to make myself seem not trustworthy. I guess I'll be treating him next week bahs... Lols. I really need money. The things I need and want to buy is alot... -.- Yet, what's really important now is that I have to buy a laptop and a new school bag. Anyone wants to buy for me? :D I'll love you to death. HAHAHA. It's a pity that we'll not posted to the same school. Monday, February 25, 2008
My supervisor said that I'm easily satisfied. Am I? Just a burger is enough to satisfy me. Yeah, true. Just like how he treated me to Macdonald during Christmas Eve. It's enough. I'm naive, aren't I? I'm not missing you I'm not going through the motions Waiting and hoping you call me I'm not missing you You might have had me open But I must be going because I got life to do I know I'm usually hanging on I used to hate to see you gone But this time its different I don't even feel the distance I'm not missing I'm not missing you Am I just lying to myself? I've not been online for 2 days and shit, I just found out that there's a problem with my tagboard. Went to the website to find out and ta-da~ Found out that actually I'm not the only one who's having this problem, many others are also experiencing it. -.- Hope the problem could be solve soon. Cos' there's plenty of tags in there which I seriously don't wish to change another tagboard. Ok, enough of nagging. Let me update on what happened on 22 Feburary!! =] Like what we've planned, XH, RL and me went to Bishan Junction 8. Before that, we met at Lot1 and RL's shoes almost broke off. LOL. So we went searching new shoes for her before we went to Bishan. And, MX was there with us and he sent us to J8 before taking MRT back to Clementi where he's working. -.- So yars, went to J8 and found out that there's actually not much for us to shop. So took MRT again to Far East. Shopped around and managed to get 2 shirts and a vest, a sunglasses and a necklace! And the necklace was my birthday present from XH and RL. Thanks, I loveeee it soooo muccchhh(: Apart form the necklace, I actually spent $100 for the clothes and the sunglasses. :X But well, it was worth it. I wanted to shop somemore but due to time constraint and they were asking me to stop shopping cos' they are broke, we took 190 back to BP. They went home while I went to BPP to find ling. Had a filling and satisfying dinner at Ichiban. The tempura ice-cream was YUMMY. And thanks ling for the dinner. LOL. Didn't know she was treating me. =] Accompany her to Bukit Timah to buy her school uniform. Almost miss our bustop cos' both of us forget where to alight to go to Beauty World. By the time we finished buying her uniform, there's still some time left before XJ is released from her school. So we shopped around and found a shop selling really cheap watches. CASIO please... -.- We are suspecting that it's fake. :X Well, XJ finally picked up her phone after I've called her for N times. Wanted to go to Causeway to meet up with her. Yet we realised that by the time we get there, all the shops are already closed. So, decided to go BPP to meet her. XJ passed me my present and I was super shocked. Slacked around the Mac for awhile before I went to meet JL to pass him the money. Sat down and chatted awhile and I realised he is still as crappy as ever. He still love to bully me. -.- Went home and I was damn tired. Working for theses past 2 days so didn't get a chance to update. Pardon for this super long post. ^^ Had fun working with my colleagues and I've found out more about the life in SP. Well, I'm looking forward to start of school, especially the orientation camp. :D Going BP again later to meet RL to get back the PE T-shirts and so that I can pass it to ling. Shit, my legs going to break. -.- And I think I'm falling sick. Friday, February 22, 2008
Today's my birthday~! Thanks for all the birthday wishes that I've got from my friends. :D Especially JEREMY, for wishing me kuai gao zhang da. So unique lahs, only he wish me this.-.- Also, it's really happy to know that some of my primary school friend still remember my birthday. Wahahahas. Finally tidied up my closet but due to all the dust, I've got a terrible, horrible, vegetable flu. -.- It's so terrible that I've to sneeze every few seconds. LOL. My nose was super red and I've used up countless of tissues. Luckily I'm fine today cos' I'm going out!! Instead of k-boxing, we went to watch CJ7 yesterday. All because of XJ, who's the one who organised it, can't make it at the last minute. LOL. But never mind! She own me a starbuck. ^^ RL's friend, Jiale, was really quiet. Kinda emo at times too. Guess cos' he's not familiar with me. HAHA. And I was like sneezing away in the cinema cos' it's damn cold, even though I bought a jacket. Okok, let's talk about the movie. It's really NICE!!! I actually cried when the dad died from the accident. It's really touching~ CJ7 was really cute. I wished that I will have one too. At least there's someone to keep me company when I'm sad or bored. LOL. Ok, that will be my birthday wish. I WANT A CJ7!! Can you imagine I actually ate a whole tub of popcorn all by myself, though I spill some of it onto the floor, and drank a regular coke? Imagine how much of calories I had gained despite the fact that I've only had 2 buns and a dinner yesterday. :X OMG. I need to go on diet soon. Welllll, today's my BIG day so I'll definitely be going out with my girlfriends! Lols. Thursday, February 21, 2008
I'm tired. *Yawns Well, did some shopping yesterday but didn't bought much. Just belts and a T-shirt. Sadly to say, nothing really attracts me to buy. LOL. And it really spoils my shopping mood. -.- But, did enjoy going out with RL. Hahas. It's really fun talking all those craps. Hmm, going out again. K-boxing it shall be. :D Pity XJ, school till so late even before the official start of JC. =// I guess I'm lucky to get in to poly huh? I'm going to tidy up my closet! It's damn messy. AND! About tomorrow, planning to go shopping with XH. BUT, don't know if her mum would allow her to go out. >.< XJ and ling going to have dinner with me cos' their school ends late. Again, I feel lucky not to be admitted into JC. =X TOMORROW'S MY BIRTHDAY! =] Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Wee, I still haven't recovered from the shock and excitement from yesterday's news. LOL. Ok, I'm really super duper happy that I've got into the course that I've wanted. It's like I've always got what I wanted in life. And I'm really thankful for it. (: My dad had no objection when I told him I was posted to poly. And well, he just wants me to quit my job when school starts so that I'll be able to concentrate on studying. HE WANTS ME TO GET INTO UNIVERSITY. -.- I will try my best cos' I don't want to disappoint him. =/ Spend around 100 bucks yesterday. -.- Mostly was for the grocery that I went with my mum to buy. WOW. It's like the first time I contributed to the household. LOL. Oh well, had a really filling dinner too! But too bad that the chicken wing, which were prepared by my brother and me, were burnt. =X We shall practiced our cooking skills more. Now, my brother is preparing baked pasta. -.- I wonder how it will turns out to be... Going out again later. HAHA. This time round, to Far East Plaza! To get more clothes before the start of the school. Ok, I admit it. Partly cos' I wanted to go shopping too. Hahas. Tuesday, February 19, 2008
I GOT INTO BUSINESS ADMINSTRATION! :D Recieved the message from MOE at 6.30am. -.- I was wondering who the heck message me so early in the morning. Wahahahahas. I was so happy that I thought I was still dreaming. LOL. But well, I'm not. Lucky I didn't get into my first choice. Anyway, XH also get into the same course as me. ^^ Going to Causeway point later with XH and RL. After which, meeting my mum at NTUC to buy crabs!!(: Cos' I just got my pay and I want to treat my family to a sumptuous meal. My dad suggested to buy crabs and he shall cook it. Wee~ Monday, February 18, 2008
Bank in my cheque! :D Walked to Bangkit and I think there's some crime going on cos' there's alot of POLICE CARS! -.- Staying at home is really boring. I would rather be working than staying at home. I'M SO BORED. XJ and RL are working, while XH is not able to go out. AH. My social circle is just so small. =/ Someone ask me out please~ Ok, I think tomorrow will be getting our posting results. I PRAY THAT I WILL NOT GET INTO MY FIRST CHOICE!! =X Have all the good guys extinct? Sunday, February 17, 2008
Guess what, I went to watch Chingay yesterday! Though only for around half an hour cos' Xj and I were already quite tired after our work. LOL. Nevertheless, it's really fun. Didn't managed to snap a nice picture even when I tip-top. Cos' I'm at the back plus the fact that I'm short and all the other people in front of me are tall. -.- Oh well, at least I did catch a glimpse of the Chingay. Hahas. Well, before walking to find XJ at Suntec after my work, I walked to Esplande to see how's the parade going on. How lucky am I to be able to watch beautiful fireworks!! It's so pretty and it's the first time I actually watched it alone. HAHA. Nice atmosphere. :D Snap a few shoots of it but it didn't turn out good too. Had a hard time squeezing through people to get through the underpass when we were going back home. It's damn crowded, just like how it is during New Year Eve at Chinatown; maybe even more crowded. LOL. Managed to find the bustop and we decided to catch Chingay again next year. ^^ My birthday is coming and I want to celebrate! Kbox~ Wahahahaas. I wonder if they can make it. O.o I GOT MY PAY. AND I WANT TO GO SHOPPING. soon. =D Friday, February 15, 2008
YEAH! My colleague called me just now and said that my pay had arrived. WEE!! Thursday, February 14, 2008
Supposed to eat sushi buffet. But the Suki at Lot1 was closed down. -.- So, we decided to choose either Pastamania or Sakae. In the end, we chose Sakae but the buffet only starts at 3pm. FINALLY, we decided to eat al la cart. LOL. But well, quite worth it. I only spend $14.50 for around 10 side dishes. HAHA. After eating, all of us went to XH's house to gamble again. I won alot of money and mostly it was RL's money. =X Sorry, didn't know that my luck will suddenly change for the better. Lols. And XJ kept asking me to send her my picture for her friend to see cos' her friend asked her to introduce girlfriend to him. -.- Now's here some pictures that we took while eating. :D  The amount of plates we(RL and ME) ate.  This was secretly taken. HAHA.  I'm not trying to shoot that guy behind me. -.-  Trying to be idiots again. ^^  Tada~ Last picture. =] Going to cut my cake soon. I'm so damn full. LOL.  Today's Valentine's day! And it's my lunar birthday too. :D So, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! I'm going to gain back all the fats that I've lost. LOL. Cos' I've just finished eating Macdonald breakfast and I will be eating sushi buffet with my usual gang later. =] Just came back home with my mum, I accompanied her to NTUC to buy the things needed for tonight prayings. See, I'm so good. Hahas. But the things are hell heavy. -.- So yups, going to gorge myself to death today. =X Initially was planning to go Kbox but the price... LOLS. Sushi is more worth it. Forget about all the unhappy things and enjoy the day with my lovely friends. ^^V Wednesday, February 13, 2008
I'm damn tired. -.- Went out consecutively for 3 days. LOL. If I've gotten my pay, I will enjoy the trip more cos' I'll be able to buy the things I like rather than seeing other people buy. But well, called Ah-Kat and she said that I will get my pay in these 2 days. Wee, I'll be able to shop like hell soon. ^^V Took neoprints with XJ and RL today. We look so idiots. HAHA. Shall upload it tomorrow. Watch Ah long Pte Ltd and I tell you, I was laughing my ass out in the cinema. =X It's damn hilarious, though the storyline isn't really that good. Still, it's entertaining and I enjoyed it. Definitely not a waste of my money. :D Tomorrow Valentine's day and we still do not know where to go. =.= Ok, Singapore is really toooo small. LOL. Can Singapore become BIGGER? Just finished lao yu sheng. So fun~ HUAT ARHS! Yups, just updated the song on my blog again. This song totally suit me cos' my birthday is coming~ ^^V By the way, today's ren ri, which means it's everyone birthday! :D Had a fun time gambling with XH, ling and XJ yesterday. Instead of winning, I lose $22. -.- But never mind! We had a great time chatting with each other. It's really long since we had been gossiping with each other. LOL. Perhaps going out later? RL not working today and I feel like getting the stuff I want. =/ Yet I'm really lazy to get out of my house. I guess it's due to the fact that I woke up early cos' of the construction work going upstairs. DAMN NOISY. And I think I got a headache. 我知道伤心不能改变什么 那么让我诚实一点 诚实难免有无法控制的宣泄 只有关上了门不必理谁 一个人坐在空的包厢里面 手机让它休息一夜 那上千个切掉回忆的画面 时间眼流不能十二点 生日快乐 我对自己说 蜡烛点了 寂寞亮了 生日快乐 泪也融了 我要谢谢 你给的你拿走的一切 还爱你的一点恨 还要时间才能平衡 那梦伤痕画面重生 祝我生日快乐 一个人坐在空的包厢里面 手机让它休息一夜 那上千个切掉回忆的画面 眼泪不能流过十二点 生日快乐 我对自己说 蜡烛点了 寂寞亮了 生日快乐 泪也融了 我要谢谢 你给的你拿走的一切 还爱你的一点恨 还要时间才能平衡 热恋伤痕画面重生 祝我生日快乐 还爱你的一点恨 还要时间才能平衡 热恋伤痕画面重生 祝我生日快乐 Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Accompany XJ to shop yesterday. Seeing her buy things make my heart felt itchy too. LOL. And yeah, went to ask about my pay too and my supervisor kept making fun of me saying "no" in chinese. He says my voice is really "deh"~ Does my voice really sound like a kid? -.- Oh well, my pay haven't arrived yet. SOB. He said he will help me asked again today. Well well well, going to XH's house later to GAMBLE. Wahahahahas. I'm gonna win money for the shopping trip on Thursday. ^^V I guess all the four of us will be going out on that day. Cos' the other 2 girls plan to celebrate their Valentine's Day with their boy earlier. Wee~ Been long since we last went out together. I suddenly realised that my lunar birthday also falls on 14th February, which is this Thursday. :D Monday, February 11, 2008
不会爱 - 飞轮海 只好让礼物安静躺在我口袋 宁愿看着你跟他快乐聊到笑开 当用情两字不足形容我情感 心情都随你转弯 而其他情景问我耳朵 爱情都听不完 适合我们的从不是浪漫 你不会爱 我的爱 我明白 你的最爱 那一块 哪天我才存在 我不会爱 你的爱 受伤害 所以宁愿安静的等待 只剩下冰冷空气陪我一整晚 寂寞却多到塞车 根本无法动弹 一翻身我在半夜突然就醒来 梦里你的唇柔软 而其他情景问我耳朵爱情都听不完 适合我们的从不是浪漫 你不会爱 我的爱 我明白 你的最爱 那一块 哪天我才存在 我不会爱 你的爱 受伤害 所以宁愿安静的等待 爱你我慢不下来 没有哪一天例外 愿自己比快 我会赶上你未来 你不会爱 我的爱 我明白 你的最爱 那一块 哪天我才存在 我不会爱 你的爱 受伤害 所以宁愿安静的等待 不怕空白 我繼續等待 I really wonder... Are we so fated? -.- Yesterday, I kept having a hunch that I will met him when I was on my way home from work. And tada, I met him when I alight from the bus. Let's call it fate. LOL. Seeing him kinda make me feel happy? =X Guess he's on his way to meet up with her. Hahas. I kept wanting to rebond my hair. But that auntie was like soooo busy. Busy resting. -.- AH. If I'm really so lucky to get into my first choice, school will start really soon and that means I might have to wait for REALLY long before I got to have a chance to rebond again.Why? Cos' I'll have to tie up my hair when I go to school and rebond-ed hair are not supposed to be tied. EEK. Now, I would rather go to work than to stay at home. It's getting really boring~ Yawns* YEAPS. Going out with XJ and XH. Though only for a while, still better than nothing. Saturday, February 09, 2008
YEAH. Having PIZZA later on~ It's been ages since I last ate pizza. ^^ 飞轮海-一万个快乐 你怕未来太遥远 我就飞越地平线 你嫌世界太乏味 我就拼命去改变 就算你一份感动 需要累积一万个快乐 也为你搜集浪漫留下深刻 你的心像个气球看似欢乐 却很容易破 我小心不肯让你飘走 你怕未来太遥远 我就飞越地平线 你嫌世界太乏味 我就拼命去改变 就算你一朵微笑 需要燃烧一万个快乐 也陪你爬上屋顶谈心唱歌 我的心亮得可以穿透浓雾 在黑夜照射一定能带你看幸福的 靠在我背后别担心 手抱紧不要放开 决不在半路就把你给放下来 就算你一份感动 需要累积一万个快乐 也为你搜集浪漫留下深刻 你的心像个气球看似欢乐 却很容易破 我小心不肯让你飘走 就算你一朵微笑 需要燃烧一万个快乐 也陪你爬上屋顶谈心唱歌 我的心亮得可以穿透浓雾 在黑夜照射 一定能带你看幸福的 一定能带你看幸福的 AH MENG IS DEAD. :(( Well, went over to my jiu jiu's house yesterday. Gamble with my cousins and I lost. -.- Luckily, my jiu mu was really nice to give each of us $20 for she was the big winner yesterday. =] Had steamboatand sharkfin over at their house. Yum yum. Any relatives who saw me will ask me the same old question. " So how's your result? Where are you planning to go?" -.- Like duh, I know they care but I'm really tired of answering back the same question again and again. Currently slacking at home. RL asked me to go out but I'm just plain lazy, though it is kinda boring staying at home. LOL. I want to catch a movie!!! Especially CJ7 and Ah Long Pte Ltd. As for Kungfu Dunk, I'm not really that interested. =X Hoho, 14th Feburary is coming. I remembered I spent it with JX last year. :D I guess I will be spending it with XJ? I guess I mentioned it before in my previous post. Wee, I suddenly thought of a place to go to. EAST COAST! Hahas. Been really long since I've last been there. AND! My birthday is coming too~ ^^V Will be working tomorrow and coincidentally, our class is planning to go to Mrs Tan's house for gathering. Sad-ed, I'm not able to go to see. =/ Hmm, I'll only have to work for one day. After tomorrow, I will have to wait till 16th before starting work again. Plenty of time for me to SLACK. Next Thursday is Valentine's Day. Which also marks the first month since we break. And also our 4th month together if we haven't break. Complicated~ Thursday, February 07, 2008
JIAN YU. Na, your name big big on my blog. Happy? LOL. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (: Went home directly after my work for reunion dinner. Woo, I'm damn hungry by then. Cos' I didn't had my lunch despite that I was feeling a little bit hungry. HAHA. Save money lahs~ March maybe still going Taiwan with XJ. I finally get to eat abalone!! My favourite. ^^V After our reunion dinner, went to chinatown with my family to get some new year goodies. Nearly got squeeze to death by the crowd. Some even step on my feet. -.- PAIN LEHS~ But I had fun buying those goodies. I always love it cos' you just have to pay the amount and that person will give you a plastic bag for you to put in as many sweets/mochi as you can. Depend on how much you can put in to it and all that's in the plastic bag is YOURS. Woo, it's super fun. Slept real late yesterday as I was sms-ing my friend. He super funny lahs~ But he's good cos' he's going to give me all his hong bao money. Wee~ Today's chu yi but we didn't went out. Instead, my dad's god-daughter came over to our house. For a 5 year old kid, she's kinda fierce. Lols. But I've to admit that she and her little brother is sooooo damn cute. :D We will be going over to my uncle's house tomorrow which is our usual practice for every year. Hong bao here I come~ I love mochi!! Monday, February 04, 2008
I guess we are really fated? Hahas. If you did saw me, did I make a good job of being oblivious towards you and her? I guess I did. (: Well, we've been exceptionally busy though today was a Monday. I had no time to even stop and eat. Woo, my whole body is aching now~ And I think my stomach is grumbling. LOL. But, I think I should skip eating supper for it make me gain weight. AND! I've not gotten my pay~ =(( Coincidentally, she was my brother's friend. Guess what did my brother comment on her? He said that she had an auntie look. Hmm, I didn't really notice. He loves her for who she is and I can't comment on it either. Right? Hahas. I really have to thank my friend for he forsake his beauty sleep to accompany me on the phone so that I won't feel awkard just now. THANK YOU! My shopping trip yesterday was GREAT! I bought 2 tubes, 1 skinny, 1 skirt and a shirt! =] Thanks to RL for keeping me company. ^^V By the way, I bought 2 boxers from Topman yesterday. HAHA. Sunday, February 03, 2008
I love this song~ Lols. And the MV is sooooooo artistic.(: |
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