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Chun.YuI felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Wednesday, April 30, 2008
SQUASH I said I'll be choosing either CYA or Tennis as my CCA, right? The truth is, I chose Squash instead. HAHAHAHAHAs. I wanted to join Tennis but that person said that it's full. :((( So we went off to check out Squash. It's still kinda like Tennis, isn't it? Just that we're not playing against humans but against the wall. Emo huh? :X Woke up early in the morning to meet up with my friends for MacDonald's breakfast. Yum yum. :D Headed back to school for our MOB lecture and tutorial. Tutorial was excepectionally fun, screamings could be heard as we built the nest for our egg. =] Kind of discussed with them about where to go for tomorrow's outing. After tutorial, we went over to the CCA showcase again. We saw Benjamin and were persuaded to join the club that he's in. HAHA. Yunhui damn happy hors? :X PACC and IDEA project not yet completed. I guess I will have to spend midnight oil today. =/ Yesterday was Ben and Jerry's day! & I didn't get a free icecream cone. :/ Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Pictures speak a thousands words. Here's some of the photos that we took yesterday. And there are some that's taken during the Lollipop event.(: Lollipop's Event  Janelle!   During EC tutorial. :D   Janelle again! LOL  The 4 lovely friends who I always hang out with. :D       I'm so tired. Too tired to type any more words. LOL. Tomorrow's going to be a fun day! MOB isn't that boring after all. There's a mini competition for us tomorrow! Let's see who's egg will be broken when dropped from the 4th floor. :D And I guess I'll attend the briefing for Changi Youth Ambassador before deciding whether to have it as my CCA. Cos' the thought of having to travel for an hour plus from my home to Changi kind of puts me off. =/ If not, I think I'll be having Tennis as my CCA. Let's see how it goes tomorrow! ^^ I'm getting addicted to PSP. Monday, April 28, 2008
decision-making I hate Monday. Not only it's the starting of the week, our lessons start early in the morning at 8am. -.- And we were informed that we will have our EC test next next week. AH, like so fast can!! As usual, tutorials and lectures are still as monotonous as ever. Luckily, we kept ourselves entertain by passing notes to each other. I felt as if I'm back in those good old days whereby I'm still in my secondary school passing notes to my classmates. (: Took alot of photos today with a lot of funny actions during our break and EC tutorial. Discussed about the class chalet and we kind of decided to have it at Sentosa. Wee, I'm looking forward to it. We'll only be together for 1 year and we should really treasure and enjoy the times we are together as a class. :D Headed over to the CCA showcase as soon as we have finished our lectures. There are just too many CCA for me to choose from... I'm feeling so confused now. I want to join every CCA, greedy aren't I? LOL. After browsing through some of the CCA which we were interested in, we went over to my favourite FC4. =] Chilled out over there for sometime & they suddenly suggested to head over to Queensway Shopping Centre to search for some of the things that they might need if they join the CCA. Shopped around and we were almost lost when we went back home. HAHAs. Like so funny lahs, we alighted 1 stop earlier. -.- Here's some of the picutres we had taken, others will be posted up tomorrow when I've got it.      WOAH, my blog entry for today is so long. Suddenly, I felt that Monday isn't that boring after all. :] Someone please advise me on what CCA to choose~ Sunday, April 27, 2008
DBA/09 :] Currently doing my Econs tutorial work. Seriously, I doubt I'll be able to score well in this module. I just can't seem to remember what I've learnt from the lecture. Like WTH. -.- I guess I've to spend extra effort on this module. School has just started and here I am, grouching about how tough this module is. =/ What a bad beginning. Below are the photos taken during the Lollipop outing with my class. Credits to Zheng Yan & Candy. (:         Saturday, April 26, 2008
FLU~ Shit, I woke up with a flu with my nose as red as that of a reindeer. Ahahahas, I think I can go and distribute presents with Santa Claus. :] Plenty of things to do which include completing my tutorial work and the stupid IDEA project.Yet, I just can't seem to be able to find any motivation to finish them. Damn, the IDEA project is making me go mad soon. Something that's new and practical? PLEASE! I'm not an inventor for goodness sake.-.- Coffee keeps me AWAKE. Argh, it's 2am and I'm still not sleepy. I guess it's all because of the iced cappuccino that I had just now. Damn, it tasted so bitter. Yet I finished it up cos' it cos' me $6.90. =.= Seriously, I love my class. HAHAs. So random~ By the way, photos will be up tomorrow when I get it. :] Lollipop sucks. Disappointing! I never get to go inside M.O.S due to the huge crowds. It's as if we were queuing up for Hello Kitty! There's even a lady who came and ask us what are we queuing up for. =.= And my bag was like so damn heavy with my lappy inside. SOBS. Never mind, there's always a next time. I shall be a good girl now. Hahas. Since we didn't get to go into M.O.S, all of us went to coffee club to chill out. Took alot of pictures and we were like so damn noisy over there. :X Chalet chalet~ Let's start organising now! LOL. I'm now cracking my brain over what to design for my IDEA project. ARGH, I don't think I've learnt anything about the ZBrush Programme. My tutor was like sooo... -.- And the worst thing is that it's due next week. %^&*#$#*$*%#% Someone please help me~ Thursday, April 24, 2008
Wee, finally it's Friday tomorrow! =] I'm so tired. Lunched at Pizza Hut today and we managed to have a great time eating pizza. LOL. Something that is worth expecting for tomorrow, Lollipop at MOS. Never been there before, wondering if it's going to be fun. BLEAH. Let's find it out tomorrow~ Wednesday, April 23, 2008
A story which I've come across in the net... Dear Mommy, I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap. He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken. I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened. I was so excited when I began realizing my existence. I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me. Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy. That same day, the most horrible thing happened. A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me." Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore. Then the monster started ripping my arms off. It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me. I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all. I wanted more than anything to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap. He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is; I guess that's the name of the monster. I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful. It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die. Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster. Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.Please be careful. Love, Your Baby Girl Abortion is really scary. :(( Geez, how I wished everyday was today. Aw~ School ended early today at 12pm! MOB tutorial class was cancelled again today. Like so unbelievable lahs~ All of us were like "Huh? True a not..." LOL. Had a hard time finding seats at FC6 for lunch so we went to FC4, my favoooouuurrrittteee FC. =] Head onto Far East Plaza after lunch to shop. I bought nothing again... :(( Booked an appointment for medicure on Friday with Jiamin and off we went to mit up with Timothy who had just had a haircut. Woo, I guess anyone who sees it will have the same expression and reaction that we have just now. Hahas. Had blackforest cake at Han's, yum yum. I guess I'm really going to go fat. Boo hoo... Saw Chen Zhi Cai filming Bioskin variety show and gosh, he is so handsome. (: Accompanied Jiamin to go to XiaoZhu's shop and we saw Lee Teng. He looked so damn skinny. :X Oh well, we kind of find a job that's related to our course. Guess we're going to do it since it does not only let us learn new things that are relevant to our course, we are also paid to do it. Wahahahahas... Cool, isn't it? We are just so plain lucky. :D Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Damn, I think my hand is going to break sooner or later. Lappy weights a ton and I really regretted that I didn't get the Compaq. I should have listen to my godbrother. AHH, the worst thing is that I've to bring it to school E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y! Never mind, enough of the complaining. I love STATS tutorial. Mr Ah Huat never fails to bring a smile to our face. HAHA. And he always dismiss us early! ^^ MOB tutorial was cancelled for today and our class ended at 12pm! Went over to Moberly to find the guys and just talk crap. Lols. Accompanied Jiamin till 3pm before YunHui, Sandy, Huiping and I went over to Bugis to do some shopping~ All of them bought somethings except for me. I didn't managed to see anything that I liked. Perhaps going to FarEast tomorrow. Woo, maybe I'll be able to find clothes that is suitable for me over there? Going to have MOB lesson and tutorial the whole day tomorrow. -.- Monday, April 21, 2008
I'm having Monday blues... Econs tutorial and lecture are ok... But I just kind of dislike this subject cos' it reminds me of Social Studies. :X EC lesson was much more enjoyable than last week. Had a small presentation and I guess I'm really getting used to my new class. Hahas. At least I dare to present in front of them without really shivering. LOL. Had MacDonald with my friends after POA lecture. POA almost makes all of us go crazy as we discuss about debit and credit. HAHAs. I guess that's the reason behind our hunger yet I think we're going to go fat at this rate. :X And we like finally decide to go to lollipop? I guess. Hahas. This means I've to think of what to wear again... Exhuasted and yes, I've finally managed to finish the STATS homework. -.- Like finally~ I'm feeling sleepy now~ YAWNS. Perhaps due to my best friend, Ah hong, who has come to find me? Luckily tomorrow lesson is starting at 9am. I NEED A GOOD REST. Sunday, April 20, 2008
I've got a BAD BAD BAD headache. -.- Tomorrow's Monday and it's going to be super tiring as lessons going to start at 8am till 4pm. I should really start to brace myself up. No more thinking of slacking. LOL. I don't wish to fail my modules and repeat it all over again next year. Homework for tutorials are finally finished. Wee~ But I don't know if I've done it correctly. Or, if I've missed out anything. I just had a bad feeling that I've forgotten about something. -.- I wonder what's wrong with my MSN, I just keep signing in and out. Gosh, I hate it. >.< Opps, I told myself to do my homework yet here I am, blogging. I just simply can't resist the temptation to switch on the computer. And guess what's the time now? 12.30am. =.= Saturday was quite a boring day for me. Stayed at home and watched TV, napped for awhile and did some of the homework. Basically, I think Economics is even more difficult than POA. Perhaps I won't feel this way after a few months? LOL. Friday, April 18, 2008
I guess my hands are going to break from carrying my lappy. -.- School ends at 1pm today! Wahahahas, had fun playing pool today with my friends at Jurong Entertainment Centre. Most of the girls didn't really know how to play so we have to trouble the 2 guys, Kenglai and Christopher, to teach us. LOL. But I'm still not really well at it though I've tried it once before. I guess I played too much pool that makes my hand goes wobbly & ta-da~ My lappy and MOB book dropped onto the floor. :X Luckily, my laptop was fine! Thanks to my spongy lappy bag. There's a party at the MOS next Friday and our class is like still wondering whether should we go. LOL. SP is great huh, this party is exclusively free for SP students and staffs like me!! =] Oh yars, did I mention that I saw my primary classmate at SP? She's studying in the same course as me but in different class. I was like O-M-G when I saw her cos' didn't really expect to see her. Lalas~ Thursday, April 17, 2008
Lalas~ It was a long and tiring day for me today. However, I felt that time seems to pass by quickly. LOL. Bag was damn heavy due to the notes plus my super-heavy-laptop. -.- It was so heavy that I thought my height is decreasing as I carried my bag. :X SP is so big that I wished that I can actually teleport. Maybe that's not realistic, I guess SP should provide a trolley for us to push around with our bags in it. Good suggestion isn't it? ^^V But well, NEVER MIND. As the saying goes "Tomorrow will be better". Indeed, tomorrow is definitely better cos tutorial starts at 11am and end at 1pm tomorrow! Woo hoo, envy me. :D I'm starting to wondering what to wear tomorrow~ =/ Perhaps that's the disadvantage of being in polytechnic, especially in Business School. LOL. I'm missing the life in CCKSS with my wonderful class, 4/9 :(( Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Phew, another day pass by again just like that. =/ Hmm, didn't really quite undestand about the lectures we had yesterday. Luckily, it was better today. :D All the lecturers were telling us all about the tests that we are going to have for the different type of modules. Hearing it just makes me feel soooo damn stress. -.- School ended way earlier than it should be today. Instead of ending off at 3pm, we ended at 1.45pm. Wahahahas. Anyway, tomorrow is even better. Just a 1hour lecture and we are free to go. From 11am to 12pm. Wee, planning to go to Kbox with my lovely classmates.(: So yups, life is getting more and more better in poly. And definitely, getting even more stressful. P.S My personal tutor is so cute. LOL. As in, the way he speak. =] Sunday, April 13, 2008
AH! School tomorrow, at 8am. -.- Went out to get my pay with RL today. Woo, despite having only work for 5 days during the month of March, my pay was $305. ^^V And my supervisor told me to come back to work if I want during my school holidays. Wee~ Bought lotsa things today. BUT, I didn't find my ideal pencil case and bag. -.- Though I've got my pay, I still have to constrain myself on buying those unnessasary things cos' I still own JL money. =/ He wants me to pay him back on Friday but too bad, I was busy and he last minute then tell me!!! So, do tell me in advance in case I've go something on. LOL. Especially since school has started. =] Friday, April 11, 2008
Wee, don't have to go to school today(: Had our SP flagday yesterday. Everyone was like so sweaty and smelly after it. HAHA. Our class manage to get around $500 for it and we took our very own class photo yesterday too! =] Stayed around in FC3 before going for the party with my classmates and we chatted abit. Papaya milkshake tastes great! LOL. We were like still contemplating whether should we go in cos' of the crowd. -.- It really dampens our mood. Well, the party wasn't as good as I thought it was. Perhaps everyone was still not really that high yet? Saw XH at the party and I stayed with her as my other classmates went off first. Here's my class photos~ :D    Wednesday, April 09, 2008
I LOVE POLY LIFE. IT ROCKS. Perhaps I won't feel this way after the orientation. LOL. Anyway, there's a party tomorrow~! :] SO COOL LAHS~ Envy me, yeah? School has started and well, everything has been going quite smoothly. (: Hmm, let me talk about the camp last weekend. It was the best camp that I've ever attended. And it's also the first camp that I've attended that only allows us to rest only till 6am. There's just so many exciting things that I get to play, especially the night walk. Though it did scare me out of my wits, I still enjoyed it. Next, it would be the games that we played at Sentosa. Tiring but fun. HAHA. Finally, it's the first day of school the next day. Again, we played those ice-breaking games. -.- Ok lahs, at least get to know more about my classmates. I really hoped we won't have to shift to another class or what cos' if not, I'll have to get to know new friends all over again. Moreover, my classmates are really nice and friendly. It's been barely a day since we know each other and we can discussed about lotsa things. LOL. Went out to eat with XH's friend after school today. Stayed in the car for 2 hours before we finally get to eat our lunch. -.- After that rushed over to Plaza Singapura to watch movies with our camp mates. OK!! Gotta go now before our poor XH die of hunger... Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Happy birthday to YING YING! :) Woah, I'm now at XH's house, drinking. As in, drinking alcoholic drink. :X Really nothing to do. HAHAHAHAHA. Having camp this weekend, looking forward to it. But I need to get a sleeping bag cos' my brother needs it too & we've only got 1. *Pray hard that I won't get my period during my camp. LOL. It's really soooooooo damn troublesome. By the way, please don't message or call me cos' I'm currently not using that number now. Do ask me for the other number. :] |
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