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Chun.YuI felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
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Saturday, February 28, 2009
isolated Somehow, I just don't feel that I'm part of your. I've been feeling this way ever since a long time ago. It's just that it's been getting stronger recently. Ok, I'm sorry for thinking this way. Maybe I'm just being really unreasonable. But that's how I feel. I don't wish to think this way too. I don't like it when people don't bother to listen to me when I'm talking. I don't like it when I feel as though I'm the odd one out. And most importantly, I don't like what I'm feeling now. 2, 2, 1. I'm always the 1. I'm only the 2 when 1 is not around. I'm actually wondering if I should go next Monday. =/ I'm feeling very unhappy. Totally. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. T.T I AM A FAILURE~~~~ I know, I've to stop being so emo. What's wrong????? isolated Somehow, I just don't feel that I'm part of your. I've been feeling this way ever since a long time ago. It's just that it's been getting stronger recently. Ok, I'm sorry for thinking this way. Maybe I'm just being really unreasonable. But that's how I feel. I don't wish to think this way too. I don't like it when people don't bother to listen to me when I'm talking. I don't like it when I feel as though I'm the odd one out. And most importantly, I don't like what I'm feeling now. 2, 2, 1. I'm always the 1. I'm only the 2 when 1 is not around. I'm actually wondering if I should go next Monday. =/ I'm feeling very unhappy. Totally. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. T.T I AM A FAILURE~~~~ I know, I've to stop being so emo. What's wrong????? I shouldn't have stayed at home yesterday. He shouldn't have slapped me. TWICE somemore. I'm getting really tired. Can't he just listen to me? SHIT. WTH. I realised I don't know who to find when I'm troubled. Turns out that I don't have as much friends as I thought I have Things are getting a little bit rough here. Nothing has been going right. I don't wish to stay at home. P/S Anyone has Starhub modem which they don't need to use? Lend me pleaseeee~ Friday, February 27, 2009
Ok, I guess I'm better. Maybe I'm just not happy that you didn't even bother to tell me until I asked. OKKKK, never mind. Lols. I guess it's partly due to my best friend that make me to be so moody. HOHO~ P/S Class chalet at Changi next Monday. (((: Thursday, February 26, 2009
Walked to 6 coffeeshops at Bedok before we finally settled to eat. And it's all because we can't find any shops that sell crabs. We gave up after walking around Bedok. I guess people in Bedok don't eat crabs. I'm disappointed. Why can't they just stick with their decision? Why can't people just do what they had said? Is it so difficult? Wanted it and I asked. No, not being appreciated at all. My mum is the same. She just don't care. Or maybe she does, but she cares more for my brothers. Everyone leave me alone. I just want to cry. I just feel that I don't belong here. No, not important. P/S I spend most of my money on transport rather than shopping. P/P.S I'm just ranting. No problem. 当时的天空好美，好美。 我曾经认为世界上最美的东西， 已经消失得无影无踪了。  That's the rainbow I'm talking about yesterday. :D I guess a lot of other people must have seen it yesterday too. Picnic with the girls at ECP later. HEEEEEEE. Wednesday, February 25, 2009
It's freeeeeedom! Weeee, I finally finished my exams. :DDDD Went to Cineleisure after our last paper with Sandy And we watched the movie "Underworld". Which happens to be Sandy and my first ever M18 movie! It's a rather touching movie. BUT! It's rather gross too. You can see the blood gushing out like a river. ~.~ We almost get to see Vaness Wu in person. But we gave up waiting after awhile. It's as though he took forever just to appear in person. Walked out of the mall and saw alot of people looking at the sky. Turned around and guess what we saw. RAINBOW! And you can see the colours very distinctively. It's really my first time seeing it so clearly. But, stupid blogger don't let me upload the photo. -.- OH WELLLLLL. Day out with the girls tomorrow! Maybe having a picnic at Marina Barrage. Not yet settled. Cos' we were supposed to go Wild Wild Wet. Yet, just nice my best friend came. So we changed our plan to go to Escape. Yet, it's only open during the weekends and holidays. SORRRRY. :X But, it's confirm that we are going to have crabs for dinner tomorrow. HAHAHAHAHAHA. :DDD Tuesday, February 24, 2009
I don't know why but... I find it hard to trust you anymore. The little bit of trust that you had gained from me once again, has been lost once again. Cos' I thought you said we were friends, but I feel otherwise. (: OH! And Primers people called me yesterday and asked me if I want to take part in events. One of it was to be NDP motivator. WAHAHAHA, damn fun. That's not the point. The main point is that I will be able to see fireworks for N times. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD YEAP. GAMBATEH! Last paper and we are freeeee. Sunday, February 22, 2009
YEAH! Today is my BIG day cos' I'm finally 18. LOL. Thanks to those who had wished me in one way or another. Be it through SMS, MSN, Facebook, Friendster or face-to-face. THANKS!!! :DDDD Especially to the girls and my 2 beloved darlings. (((: Ok, so I was supposed to go to JE to so-called "collect" my brithday present from Yunhui cos' she said she wanted to pass it to me by today. I was a bit curious what she's planning becos' she acutally asked me what time I'm going to leave my house to JE. It's weird becos' she has never asked this kind of question before. And it turned out that they gave me a surprise today by coming up my house! :D I was really shocked cos' I've no idea how they got my address and they've never been to my house before. Hoho~ And I thought they would be busy studying or what that we've to celebrate my birthday after exams. Thanks girls. (((((: *LOVE  The BIG birthday card that they gave me. AND THEY DREW A FISH. OMG. Lols.  The cake they gave me. It's the same cake that my dad bought for me last year, just that it's bigger than this. HAHA. What a coincidence.    The presents that my 2 beloved darlings gave me. ((((: I'm really happy today even though there isn't any BIG celebration for my 18th birthday. At least, my friends planned a surprise for me. HEEEEE. And girls! This is the first birthday that I've spent with all of you. Really thanks for all the things all of you did. Waking up early and coming to my house. OMG, I really wanted to cry just now. T.T P/S Shit, I've not touched my FOM at all. *.* P/P.S Of all people, why didn't you? Labels: 18th birthday Saturday, February 21, 2009
It's approaching. But, I feel nothing. LOL. The excitement seems to have disappear. Maybe it's just another day. ((((: I shall loathe this very day after tomorrow. Cos' it just means that I'm getting older. If only we can stay like this. Forever. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. No plans. P/S Thanks to those who wish me happy birthday in advance. :D A lot lehs, this year. LOL. P/P.S All of a sudden, I think I look weird with my newly cut hair. Friday, February 20, 2009
Just cut my hair with my mum. The hairdresser was trying to tell me some jokes. Lols. Statistic paper was.... I don't want talk about it. LOL. No confidence. I spent my whole night studying till I almost breakdown. -.- YEAH, imagine me almost breaking into tears doing the past year exam papers when I just can't seem to get the answers right. OH WELLLL, at least it's finally over. Sang at Kbox after the paper with Sandy and Jiajia. More singing sessions please. :DDDDD YEAHHHH. Sunday is coming. =D Told my mum about Xinjie and Eeling coming over to cook at my house this Sunday. My mum reaction was, "Huh? Come our house cook? Don't want lahs~ Why don't you all go out and eat?" And my reaction? ............................................. HAHA. Ok lahs, kitchen is her "workplace". It's no wonder she don't really like people to come and cook. Or maybe she don't want them to see our messy kitchen. LOL. :X Should be going out for lunch with them. Hahas. Going out for dinner with my family later. TZE CHA. Hoho~ Been so long since we've last ate out together. It's so rare that everyone is freeeee. Hahas. One last paper. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~ P/S CLASS CHALET! (: Wednesday, February 18, 2009
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Just took my accounting paper in the morning. Which means, I'm a step closer to my freeeeedom. :D Paper was fine. I wasn't feeling really confident while I was doing it. I even almost forgot to do one part of the question, like the previous exam. OMG, luckily I realised it. Wellll, it turns out that most of the workings I did was actually correct. Maybe I just don't trust myself. LOL. BUT. I found 1 or 2 careless mistakes. AWWWW~ I want to get an A lahs~ Please. EHHH, went to IMM for lunch with Sandy. We were sitting there waiting for the MC VALUE LUNCH. Been a long long time since I've had McSpicy. Boy, it was freaking hot. Ok, I mean the burger. AND the weather too. HAHA. Shopped around IMM after that. Went Waston and woooots, both of us were looking at HAIR REMOVAL CREAM. LOL. I think that's a necessity for a girl ok. Unless you want to be very, very, very hairy. HAHA. OK, can see that my mood is super GOOOOD. Cos' I keep crapping and writing about things which sound so stupid. HAHAHA. Shall go nap for awhile before going to meet with the girls for dinner later. Monday, February 16, 2009
The anticipatition was not as much as I had before. Maybe it's becos' things had changed. 1 down, 3 more to go. (: Wooooot. Just had my first paper today, Economics. Oh well, I thought it's going to be real tough. But the paper was pretty ok. At least, I think all my effort was not wasted. I should be able to pass. LOL. Next up, PACC. Oh! I must thanks RuiLing for her encouragement. She came specially to my house just to gave me her words of encouragement. Jiayou for your exam tooo. HEEEE. Received all the cards from the girls today. And I'm also really glad to be friends with them. :DDD Who know how's poly life going to be without them. We won't be able to crap together, eat those "JABALANG" food together, gossiped together, have fun after school together, talked bad about teachers together, pon-ed lectures and tutorials together and many more. Omg, I will miss all of you. T.T SHITTTTT. My sandals is going to spoil soooon. And I've only wore it for a few times only lohs~ WTH. To think I spent so much on it. Shall not be decieved by appearance again. Lols. Sunday, February 15, 2009
I finally collected my pay today. Wasn't as much as I've expected it to be. Still, better than nothing. LOL. Planning to work for 1 month after exams. HOHOHO~ RuiLing asked me to accompany her to take her handphone today. In the end, it's still not ready yet. We were planning to eat Sakae for lunch. In the end, the buffet was only avaliable on Monday to Friday. We met up with MeiYen and had a great time laughing away. Another gathering after your A'level ok! HEEE~ She asked me what I would want for my birthday present. "Tell me what you want, I'll get it for you." Wellllll, I want a handsome and cute guy for my present. HAHAHA. You shall get it for me, ok? :DDDDD Had a great and hearty chat with her. Been soooooo long since we've last met up. I think ever since our chalet ended. ((((: Get to know a lot a lot of things which I didn't know before. You always have to find out the truth yourself. Even your best friend would hide things from you. Even your few years of friendship is not comparable to a person whom you just know for a few months. OHHHH. Due to some unforeseen circumstances, Xinjie and Eeling decided to come to my house on Sunday instead. ((: & they want to cook for me. Ermmmm, I don't know if my kitchen will be burn. Or, will I get food poisoning. I shall TRUST them. Hahas. OMG, there's still 1 more week and I'm already planning. -.- BUT HUH, I don't like to plan lehs~ LOL. Give me surprises hor. :XXXX Tomorrow's the start of exam!!! Lucks to everyone, especially DBA/09 & the girls. =D We can do it! And to the rest of my friends, study hard too. Don't keep thinking of watching TV. :X P/S Thanks for the chocolate!!! But, my dad was the one who found it. Hahas.
Some people just think of themselves. WTH. PISSSSSSSED off. Saturday, February 14, 2009
Happy Valentine's Day! ((: People spent this day with roses, chocolates and their boyfriend. Me? I spent the day with my Econs notes and PACC papers. Sound so pathetic. LOL. Oh wellllll, chatted alot with Jiajia and Yunhui today. Was supposed to exchange cards but... I forgot to bring. HAHA. Still, they gave me my cards while they would have to wait till Monday. SORRRRRY. :X I'm sooooo excited about the last paper. No, sounds so wrong. I'm not excited about taking the FOM paper. LOL. I'm excited about what's going to happen after the paper. Cos' we are planning to book a hotel room and stayover for 2 days. I know people will be saying, "Siao, spend so much money stay in hotel room, might as well book a chalet or stayover at friend's house." BUT, it's a unusual experience mahs... Though it's expensive. LOL. And!! Jiajia and Yunhui were saying that we can go to Singapore Flyer. Either on my birthday or last day of exam. HAHA. ((((: It's ok with any of you don't wish to. HEH, I'm fine with it. P/S My brain is soooo going to explode with all the Econs and PACC stuffs. No more, please. P/P/S On a happier note, I can't believe it's this week. LOL. Friday, February 13, 2009
YAWN. Since we're not going back to school to revise, so I spent the night studying. Was up studying till 3am yesterday night. I think it's super productive. :DDDD Shall continue to study at night again today. And..... I seriously hope I would be able to do well in the exams, even though the option that I chose confirm, guarantee plus chop can get in. I just hope to do well in it. (((: Girls, JIAYOU! Tomorrow is V day! Going to exchange cards with the girls. But, there's nothing related to V day in my cards. LOL. Hope they like the gift that I got for them. Wednesday, February 11, 2009
OKKK, something really unbelievable happened to me just now. I got choked by a honey star. Yes, that's right. A honey star. I almost died of suffocation. I was eating my breakfast when all of a sudden, one of it got stucked in my throat. Don't ask me how it got stucked cos' I don't know too. Luckily, I vomitted it out. Seriously, damn lucky. Cos' no one is at home during that point of time. And I wonder what would happen if I can't get it out of my throat. LOL. OMG, I kind of escaped death, twice somemore. I shall believe that this year is an unlucky year for me. T.T Down with Econs. :D Yeah, I just finished revising the 8 chapters. Like, finally. Found that some of the points in the notes are pretty, ridiculous. LOL. AND SHIT. I've been munching away ever since I started studying. I guess tibits are the only thing that motivates/ keep me awake to study. :X I shall go on with my PACC. 3 exam papers to do, tutorials to go through again & revised the whole textbook. Guess I've to burn midnight oil today. P/S I realised I've a lot of photos in my memory card and computer. Shall print them out once I bought my photo album. :DDD Encountered an accident yesterday with my mum when we were on the way home from IMM. The three cars in front of us got crashed and our bus is just right behind them. -.- Like so damn lucky lahs... LOL But due to the accident, the bus can't move for the road is too narrow. As a result? We got caught in the bus for 1 whole freaking hour. The police arrived only like 45 minutes after the accident had happened. And I think I almost die of starvation if the police were to arrive later. & I think I got a premonition before we were going home. Cos' I kept telling my mum to take a cab home, which I don't usually do so. LOL. Oh well. Anyway, I finally got the things needed for the gifts. (((: Hope they will like what I've got for them. HAHA. Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Since my birthday is comingggg... LOL. Rules: 1.Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note about 15 things, facts, habits, or goals about your BIRTHDAY!!! 2.Everything you write must be the truth,no lies,cause somebody might just give you the PERFECT present this year!!! 3.No.of people tag is the date of your B'day 4.Everyone tagged has to do the same thing. 1. I want to learn driving. 2. I want to go clubbing with my friends. *Guess that have to wait till all of them are 18 too. LOL* 3. Ever since I'm 13, my birthday wish is to grow taller. 4. M18 movie!!!! 5. Buy my first TOTO and 4D myself. And win. HAHA 6. The day of my birthday is the Thinking Day for Girl Guides. 7. Never had any birthday cakes from friends before. LOL. 8. Who doesn't love birthday surprises? Oppppppps. But what's most important is that, I enjoy spending my birthday with my friends. ((((: 9. I still have to study for my last paper which is on 25th on my birthday. T.T 10. And because of the exam, I think I've to celebrate my birthday at a later date. Or maybe, don't celebrate it at allllll. 11. I don't think I would study on my birthday. 12. Cos' I don't like the thought of having to study on my birthday. HAHA. 13. I hope I would be granted a wish and it will come true.14. And that would be.... I wish that whatever I wish for will come true. :xx 15. I don't think I want to tag any people. Ok, maybe just a few. SANDY, YUNHUI, HUIPING, JIAMIN, XINJIE, RUILING. Cos' I want to know what you all want for birthday. HEEEEEEEE. Monday, February 09, 2009
I know I should be studying right now. The books just turn me off whenever I looked at them. With so many chapters left untouched, I wondered when I'll be able to finish all of it. ARGH. Where's my study bug? I neeeeeed you to motivate me to study. I think I need some food to eat too. NO ENERGY. -.- V day is coming! It's not just a day for couples, but also a day for friends. To our friendship. (((: JIAYOU TO EVERYONE for the coming exams. OH, CRS tomorrow. I hate writing argumentative essay. ROARRRRR WARNING: A LOT OF UNGLAM PHOTOS. (:   Shimah helping us to take photos. OH! She gave us a kiss on our cheeks~ My first time being kissed on the cheeks by a friend. HAHA    With Zhengyan. Ok, I really think I look weird that day. LOL.   The girls. (: Shall stay in touch even though we may not be in the same class next year, ok!   Yunhui. God, I realised I don't have any photos taken with you. I thought we did? LOL. Anyway, don't think so much about the outing. :D Let nature take its course~ Jiamin. OHHH, I think she still hadn't send me the photo yet. Well, last forever with your XIAOZHU. Hahas. And, jiayou for exams. I shall motivate you. (((:  Huiping. You are the most innocent girl whom I've ever known. Don't be easily taken in by other people ok! Hahas.  Sandy. The only model friend I had. Lols. Have more self-confidence ok? (((: YOU ARE THE PRETTIEST.   DBA/09's girls.      Here comes the continuous 10 shots we took. DAMN FUN. We always run out of poses. LOL.                         Here's the boss and Xie Wei. Hahas.   Ta-da~ End of photos. (: I really enjoyed being in DBA/09. I seriously have no idea how am I going to survive next year without these bunch of fun-loving classmates. T.T I don't think I'll get use to it. |
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